Let me hear you call my name.
Jacinta.July 1988 just the way you are. simplistic yet loving. More than words.
I know you love me, too.
*year-end trip with sweets!*graduation trip? *sleepovers! *wedding planner classes! *early childhood classes? *longchamp/kate spate bag *watch *a pair of new sunglasses You were here too?
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Sunday, August 31, 2008
*claps* it's 1st of sept tomorrow!! another new month denotes new experiences...Anyway, this weekend was a fantastic one!! I bet you all can't imagine what has happened. It was a working saturday for the customer service team so that we can clear our backlogs (or rather emails), so as usual, started work at 9am and ended my work at 1pm. within the 4 hours, i received messages, phone calls...And all, if you think, you might think that it's just coincidences, but having in-depth thinking, you will realise that things are not what you thought. mummy called me at around 11 plus asking me if i want her to pick me up from my office...OFFICE!! that's something that mummy usually don't do...so i took up the offer immediately! Then shortly at around 12 plus, she called me again telling me that my sis was feeling hungry so she can't pick me up already and asked me to go home on my own. Well, i always get home alone, and moreover it's the weekend, no traffic jam too, so with slight disappointment, i said; okay. Just at this time...i received a message from baby; cos i dropped him a missed call that morning upon seeing his facebook profile updated; and thinking that; "he is only booking out tomorrow, who is using his computer?" and eventually to cut the story short; baby surprised me by picking me up from office on saturday!! he booked out early that morning and didn't tell me, collaborated with my mummy, sis, and his parents...but least did he expect me to check his facebook, since i was checking mine. (: but still it was a nice surprise to start off my weekend! But that is not all; upon arriving baby's home, i saw this on his bed!!  it was a forever friends bear holding a rose! my favourite collection of all, tks dear!! But what caught my eye further was that pair of earrings hanging at the rose seen from this picture...My second surprise for the day!! And i baked cookies for him to bring into camp for him to celebrate finishing his 24km march tomorrow!! But there isn't much left in the container after our call tonight. (: Oh, since it's our 9th month tomorrow; we had our dinner celebration earlier since he will be in camp. Had Astons @ The Cathay for our 9th month dinner; and i think it was the cheapest celebration dinner we had for the past 9 months. So the surprises were for our 9th month, and because since baby was enlisted, he does not have too much time to do all these for me, so since he get the chance then why not? But the best has yet to arrive until i received his call just now... Monday, August 25, 2008
*claps*baby passed his IPPT!! been praying hard for him while being at work. anyway; the weather is not too good today either; it rained in the morning, and it makes me want to laze more in bed instead of heading to work!!the calls were the usual ones and well, the routine doesn't differ much. hopefully it doesn't rain tomorrow cos i'm getting out with nicole!! well, it's for dinner but still, getting home in the rain is not nice at all, at least wait till i get home? haven't been able to meet up with the secondary girls since my job requires me to work OT these few times. and when i'm free, i am too tired to even think of getting out. that's how bad this job can be. back to yesterday, prayed maternal grandfather at mandai since it was his 100th day and came back to bake something for baby as a surprise!! then we went toa payoh to had lunch and we were back home for a rest before baby starts packing and getting ready for his book-in. kind of dread sundays but it's going to be over soon, cos baby's POP is just around the corner in 2 weeks' time!! alright, i am super tired now, my eyelids can't exactly be kept wide open, which means it's time for bed!! meanwhile take care people and goodnights!! ♥p.s. dreaming of you. Saturday, August 23, 2008
what a cold week it has been; it's been raining non-stop these days and we have to refrain from outdoor activities. but work is still a must during weekdays even though the rain continues. anyway, it's been a busy week for me...met up with jiahuey, lilian, amelia, siew giok for dinner at Astons @The Cathay on tuesday to celebrate jiahuey's belated dinner. food was good with a group of great friends around...and we had so much laughters about so many things!! it makes me miss my poly school life so much now...well, if not for work the next day, we might have chat more!! but well, there will be chances to meet up soon!! then for wednesday; i met up with nicole sweets for dinner at Manhattan Fish Market, company was great but food was slightly disappointing. meeting up with her always makes us have issues to discuss, whether it's our boyfriends, our life or any other things. and we will always find similiaries somehow in the things that we do, and that's why she is my sweets and my boyfriend is not going to get jealous over this. still meeting her next tuesday for girls' stuff... work has been pretty usual; nothing much to say further since my work is a routine kind of thing. i love fridays at work even though there are many things to do, like clearing waivers, sorting out emails...but time passes real fast on fridays, i wonder if it's because baby usually books out on friday evenings...that's why... baby hasn't contacted me yet; he is supposed to book out tonight due to his SIT test...and i feared that it has to be tomorrow cos i got lots of things to tell him!! *concentrating on my phone* and it's just another week to september!! how time flies. okay, shall sign off now to do my stuffs while waiting for baby to sms me. meanwhile, take lots of care since the weather is pretty unpredictable at times (even though it's always raining). ♥p.s. the amount of love we give each other makes up for the time we missed. Monday, August 18, 2008
just a short post to top it off (my previous post is pretty random but well, no offences to any.)took a day of MC to rest at home; gastric of all have to find me this morning when i'm done with my hair, my contact lens, my attire; and it made me missed work today!! (: ohwell, slept half the day and grandma had to cook light dishes so as not to 'provoke' my gastric area, like no spicy food and cold items... was looking through my sis's blog, and i never know how interesting her posts were; and well, maybe because she is my sister, we tend to b**** within our room at night; so i never really take time to read her entries till today, although i read them at times. anyway, it's another working day tomorrow. gonna to have dinner with lilian and gang tomorrow, nicole on wednesday...what a busy woman am i right? then baby is booking out most probably saturday due to his SIT test. it's just another week to look forward to. ♥p.s. my loves is for all!! just that maybe i have that extra tiny winy bit of passionate love for boyfriend, affectionate love for my family...(: it's the mid of august, and soon it will be september. time seems to pass real fast and it seemed like we have only celebrated the new year not long. over time, things start to change, perception start to change, and perhaps our character does change too. i never understand why family talks when daddy is back is always made to be so unhappy; is it the topics that we mentioned or is it because by nature; we are placed into such circumstances? or maybe it's the parental styles that are different for both my parents and that we are so used to how mummy teaches us during our growing stages to turn us into young adults like now...and i realised there is never a time that i will not have to shed tears when we are having a family talk with daddy. some might say that i am weak; but i guess it was the most bitter moment when i cried yesterday, i didn't know why i felt that, but i know, something, somewhere in my heart, i felt things were wrong. since young, i am never a child that learns how to fight back during a talk, because i thought silence is the best answer; and even till now, i still have the same thinking. but thinking back, maybe this is wrong...and i know no matter what we children have to say; there will always be avenues for parents to say that we are wrong; there is no doubt on that. but at least, respect what we have to say, can they? parents are humans, aren't we humans too? to point out our wrongdoings and for us to rebuke on what we have to say is of course a natural thing. but having to point out what we said that was wrong after we explained, then to me, i will choose to keep quiet thereafter. since young, i've been known as the obedient kid in the family, and because i am the eldest, i feel that i should listen to what my parents have to say so that my siblings will follow. and now, when i am 20 years old, i still listen; but have parents put themselves in my shoes to think? there might have been some unhappiness about me spending too much time with my boyfriend. but parents would have known that relationships needs time to build up, although i know kinship needs the same time too. and parents would have expect things to turn out this way. in parents' mentality, they always think that courting couples must always spend time together because they are afraid of losing each other, or worry that one might complain that he/she is not spending enough time. but to noah and i; we are not worried about this matter at all; in fact our time spent together when we can is not because we are afraid of losing each other, is because we truly treasure the time given to us, be it previously in school or currently when he is NS. but i didn't know that it does cause some misunderstandings around. with that in mind, i will work out something with him so that no family will get the feeling of being neglected. then what is right and what is wrong? is there a specific answer for everything in the world? or is it up to each individual perception? we as kids have been trying hard to close up the gap with daddy, and i know, mummy is trying hard to make sure that we do that too, but sometimes, it's just difficult? there is no longer such thing like telling me what is right and wrong, isn't a family talk supposed to be relaxing? then why my family talk seems like it's more of a lecture when i feel so restricted to even talk? the way mummy have her family talk with us puts all of us at ease by sitting on the bed to share our problems, and to communicate just like friends. but well, it's the parenting style that we kids have to get used to. money issue; which family doesn't face this? and if things are really so tight, to me, whether i study to get a degree or not, then it's not exactly important, the reason of why i wanted to study further is because i want to prove to my parents that i can study too; i know my sister is far much better than me in studies; which this is a fact which is why she is in junior college and soon, she will move to study in a university. i might not be smarter than her, but at least i am willing to work hard so as to achieve something on the same line as her. the feeling of being inferior to your younger siblings is never a nice one, if anyone is able to put themselves into my shoes to think. typing all these out is just like putting off a big stone off my chest. i'm not complaining, but since writing is a better avenue rather than speaking, then that's where my blog gives me the chance to; but still, there are some things that are not suitable for blogging purposes. all these are just what i think, no particular meaning, just basically my personal perceptions of things. ♥p.s. my family, my boyfriend, they both stands at the same place; there is nothing such as who is better; but i love them both the same; it might be just the way i show it that marks the difference. (and i'm sure, dear; you think the same way too.) Wednesday, August 13, 2008
just a short update...work has been pretty uptight these days, non-stop call-in and callouts...and that's partially the reason why my throat haven't been able to recover even though i had a day of MC...but it's pretty understandable when my supervisor has to clear the back logs...trying to prevent us from getting scolded from end users when we terminated their service at a later date (which means more cost will be incurred on their bills) well, we do have people telling us all kinds of stuffs such as going to CASE, file a complaint, etc. and yet they always tell me; "the terms and conditions are in fine prints right?" well, then can anyone tell me if terms and conditions have ever been printed out in larger fonts than the main advertisement? well, in advertisements, don't they always put * and state that terms and conditions apply. and yet when people choose not to read them, it's our fault...anyway, this is just work, and i am doing my job in the capacity that i can. enough of work... meeting Nicole sweets for her pre-birthday dinner tomorrow after work...and i'm awaiting for friday to come as baby is off from his field camp already!!hopefully everything went well and he doesn't get confined (i'm pretty much sure that he was careful with everything during the field camp...)daddy got to postpone his flight back as he caught chicken pox...so i think he is leaving next monday instead? time for bed now...will update soon, meanwhile take care and goodnights all!! ♥p.s. we believe in what we feel, not what others see. Saturday, August 09, 2008
it's a saturday!! it's another weekend once again but well, it feels like half the weekend spent only...baby has booked in at 7pm just now and there is still sunday to go tomorrow!! i'll spend it with my family...cos baby got his field camp starting from tomorrow; which means totally no means of communication till friday!! baby told me not to arrive at his place so early today and i thought he wanted to have more rest since his field camp was just days away...but to my surprise, baby was so sweet to whip up something simple for me this afternoon!! note: he is not someone that goes into the kitchen to whip up dishes, he prefers to be served. (: but still he cooked lunch for me!! he was up preparing it from 10am till 230pm when he was done with it...tks darling!! oh, it's time for some sneak peep into my boy's new image in army...or rather the standard image in army...he looks tanner, fitter, slimmer and most importantly; he lost 4 kg after a month in BMT! and i wonder why; but i lost 1 kg too? (: but that doesn't matter; we are still very happy together; and we are contented with the current life that we have (even though we can go for better life, but that takes time. ) gonna to pray my paternal grandfather tomorrow and with time passes; my maternal grandfather was gone for more than 3 months, when everything just seemed like recently happened. i wasn't close to both my grandpas, and i am guilty to even say that i am not close to both my grandmas too. but school, work, lovelife, friendships; they basically cover my schedule here and there, and even when i have time, i don't know what topic i can talk to them other than asking them if they have eaten... Thursday, August 07, 2008
decided to put on a random entry for tonight; i haven't been doing so for such a long time. i was on my way home on the bus yesterday when there was this boy, around the age of a primary one kid, he board the bus; put his bag down, took out his wallet and tapped his ez-link card, and he stood all the way with the driver till the time i got down the bus. at that moment, it made me wonder if kids these days matured at an earlier age or they are being forced to become more independent at a younger age? relationships are such an amazing thing; they can make people fall for it and yet make people hate it. guys who spend efforts to go after girls can feel that they are no longer worth the time spent after some stages of time, while girls might just find guys whom they thought it's Mr Right no longer theirs after some time. is it because we tend to take such things easy or is it because our expectations get higher as we grow older? but i have to admit that my view for relationships changes time to time as i mature. and i guess it's pretty much stable as i progress on with baby. i have never really talked about this boyfriend of mine isn't it? well, he was much more matured in thinking than i expected initially although we were of the same age and guys are supposed to mature later than girls though. (: he has also everything planned in mind when it comes to special occasions and perhaps the only bad habit which he had is his laziness (that's in me too); i don't have to worry about the things that he have lined up for me, and most importantly, i am confident enough to say that his heart is for me, yes and it's solely for me. that's something that sadly girls often say it with no confidence. i know there might be other better couples around; but at least to know, we are not too bad either, at least better than average. (: kinship; the most amazing thing which links everyone within the family by blood. something that you cannot escape (at least for this lifetime), and yet it's sometimes so near yet so far. i've been around for 20 years; and my family is happy with my parents and my siblings. the bond which i share with my daddy and mummy yet it differs. the bond which i share with mummy is so close that i treat her as my best pal to talk about things, and for daddy; i am still chasing it to pull it closer to me. maybe it's a psychological barrier that since young, daddy is the fierce man who doesn't smile much and yet mummy is of a lively character. siblings; needless to say, we bond through argues and quarrels..hahas, well, not really, it's just sometimes when our views doesn't stand in a line...that's where such things will happen. i know my parents have different ways of loving me or even my siblings, my sister is very cheerful, so the way my parents show that they love her is through the physical way of entertaining her jokes, etc. my brother is pretty naughty; so my parents show their concern through telling him endless times of how he should behave; and for me; a talk is always the solution; i know they care; maybe it's just sensitive, sometimes i just don't feel its enough; we are humans, we tend to ask for more, even if we have other kind of loves around, such as boyfriends. alright, guess it's time for bed now, it's friday tomorrow, and i'm picking baby up since he is booking out in the afternoon!! goodnights everyone!! ♥p.s. the most difficult thing every week was not goodbye; it was the kiss that you left on my lips. Saturday, August 02, 2008
yes, it's finally the month of August! i don't know if i should be waiting for it, or should i blame it for coming too fast. ohwell, whatever it is; i'm already at work for 2 weeks! and yes pearlyn and kara had their last day in office yesterday; will miss them!! or rather, will miss their laughters as always, that will brighten up the day even with nasty callers. (:anyway, celebrated our 8th month celebration dinner only just now with baby; cos he booked out only this morning; so we missed out the actual day. but it's over, baby will always have his ideas of bringing me to different places for meals; to let me try out all kinds of food; and yes usually we don't have too many restrictions cos both of us complete each other!! we are not bothered by distance as long as we have the time, and we are determined to go...so for this month; baby brought me to Big Fish Seafood Grill! it's located at Upper East Coast Road...worth trying though, if you like seafood, but what satisfies me the most was this...  yea, the homemade brownie...yum yum...the brownie simply melts in your mouth!! big thanks to baby who brought me there!! and also thanks to his section mate that introduced him this...but what pissed baby off was the waiting for cabs, well, we are not people who often flag for cabs wherever we go (especially with the surcharge now), but we actually waited for 30 minutes before we got a cab that was willing to drive to the west side? and the worst was everyone was in front of us; snatching cabs to take. seriously pissed.anyway this weekend with baby is gonna to be pretty short because he only booked out this morning but he got to book in an hour earlier than previous week!! and moreover, next week's schedule is not confirmed yet even though national day lands on a saturday...and his field camp is nearing too...on a side note; got my contact lens supply again before meeting baby and his family for lunch and daddy is heading back singapore this coming okay; it's time for bed already; need to accompany mummy to the market tomorrow morning then to baby's house to bake chocolate fondant...sounds pretty fattening for a ns guy who just had brownies today and another sweet thing tomorrow...? no worries, he will get back in shape in no time; that i am confident. goodnights all, and i will try update soon... ♥p.s. love is always beautiful if it's truly appreciated by two people in love. |
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