Let me hear you call my name.
Jacinta.July 1988 just the way you are. simplistic yet loving. More than words.
I know you love me, too.
*year-end trip with sweets!*graduation trip? *sleepovers! *wedding planner classes! *early childhood classes? *longchamp/kate spate bag *watch *a pair of new sunglasses You were here too?
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lots of thinking.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
was thinking not to blog any entry in tonight. but it was a last minute decision to blog in this last entry for the month of april...it was decided after a talk with a friend in msn. a friend that was used to be close enough to the one to hear his problems, offer advice. it has been sometime since we last chatted on msn...becos he was having his problems...after talking to him, makes me realise that how important someone can make a difference in my life. some problems that i am facing now, they are making me go breathless without i myself knowing...many a times the give up thought came up, becos i didn't know how difficult was it to have this coming. but i can't, becos i know if i do that, i will lose him...which i don't want to. and becos of this, i have to think of ways to open this up to my parents, convince them...on the other hand, i am so afraid that the hand that is holding me would let lose anytime...though i am sure that he wouldn't. to tell that i am not thinking of them, then i would be lying. and the problems would just hang there, making me holding my breath for them at times...it's a pressure. alright, i think that's it. cos i know which direction i am moving towards... it's been another...
Saturday, April 29, 2006
went to TW for work today. met up with fennie outside SIA building this morning, reached the door of TW at around 845, and guess what, no one was around. and we sat there and waited till it was around 905, before someone came up and open the door for us...and then we started our work...then met up with darling after work today, he was supposed to accompany me down to marina square to get something. and he was late, but he has his valid reasons though. and i am not someone that is so mindful about that. cos my friends, they usually don't come on time too. hahas. so sweet of him to accompany me down..even if he is tired...and i know i did tried to make things difficult for you, instead of meeting you at the station, i asked you to come over my workplace...reaching marina, got whatever i needed already, in the end, he decided to get something for my sis's birthday though he would not be there (as much as i wanted him to, but situations doesn't allow). and can i say i got my first gift from him too? ;) tks darling. having tuition tml. gonna to be a tiring day. but meeting up with darling on monday again, 1st of may...consider that as our first date...? as much as i am so blessed with what i have, i have to pray so hard to ensure that it would always be in my hands, becos alone on my side, i have so many obstacles to tackle. i didn't know this was so difficult to start off, but i know i am prepared to face it. and so sorry darling, it must have been hard on you, becos it might not be this hard if you have met someone else. nevertheless, i am still so thankful that you are part of my life right now, and of cos, forever. ;) sometimes it just...
Friday, April 28, 2006
met darling at cck this morning, it was sweet for him to send me to work, but he has to sacrifice 2 hours of his sleep, so sorry...;) and he was off to the hospital for check up after sending me to TW. and seems like more and more ppl get to know about this already...and work at TW was hectic. even if it is at the wholesales dept. today then i finally experienced what the retail dept all along was having, imagine, one call after another...non-stop. but at the very least, i kept myself busy enough... met him again at clementi after work tml, he came down specially jus to send me home after his training. tks so much, darling. but he looks very tired to me though. was talking to mummy about many things, of cos with this matter of relationship in place too, well, i think there are progresses talking to mummy but i need to communicate with her further... well, that's it for tonight. meeting darling up again tml after work. and with that, nites ppl. it's been...
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
attachment at the call centre today was slightly boring. cos supposed to audit calls for the omega group, but the system was down. so i can't do anything. only can help around and email to the TW people. and the worst thing, is because i was sleepy. and with nothing to do, it makes it even worse...and i am going back to TW tml. and there is gonna to be advertisments...gonna to be busy already.and for tonight, thanks so much darling for the trip back. it must have been tiring for you to travel long distances...when actually you don't have to, cos you are not obliged to since we are not officially together yet. and not forgetting, that surprise you gave, i didn't expect it, but nevertheless, it's still sweet of you to do that. well, our status might be a little complicated, but i just want to let you know that no matter the status, you are still the one i want to accompany me through. nevertheless if we have to wait to get together, it's worth it still. i am not bothered by how people would look at us, because ultimately, it's still between us. and there's something you must know, i still love you for who you are... and some things cannot be mentioned here, cos it's only for his eyes only. hahs. alright then, ppl. cos i have been missing my hours of sleep, i need to be in bed, as instructed. so that's about it. take care, and nights. it's only a short time, but...
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
it's only a few days, yet so many things happened within this period of time. happy and sad events. all at once. i am not someone that can handle both emotions so nicely at the same time. and pls don't force me to say things that i do not wish to, and yet i have to, due to circumstances...it's a very tiring process, and i don't like it that way. i don't like others to probe into matters that belong just two of us, at least show some respect. becos sometimes, curiousity kills. and affairs of the heart can never be taken as a joke, if it meant to be one, whether u mean it or not, then sorry i rather not heard any. alright i know i have been harsh in this way, and the person might not read my blog too. but i just want some personal space btw two, this is not too demanding, isn't it? then if ppl really think that it is harsh then sorry.in the midst of this matter, well, there are bound to be matters that would cheer my day up without having to say any. perhaps, it's pretty obvious, but i am not bothered by the eyes of people. well, it's their choice to see, and it's my choice to react. but in all, i am still feeling pretty cheered up despite things that have happened today, becos someone managed to do so. =) oh ya, my personal selling project has been perhaps quite good. i supposed. to me, it's sufficient already. tks for all who have lent their support this time. alright then ppl, take lots of care, and goodnights. a nice starting...
Monday, April 24, 2006
last short update was on friday. it's a monday morning right now...and i am off on mondays...hahas. work has been more than fine. just that the personal selling project is gonna to tire me out, becos i have never like doing such projects. at TW, more phone calls these days, as school holidays are reaching soon, parents are booking tours. well, so fast, the month of may is arriving, in another week's time.and stef is starting school tml le. guess our time to meet up would be block leave week already. she doesn't even have much time for her bf, much less to say about me. hahas. i guess i will miss her alot. cos this time at least, 2 months, we wouldn't see each other, unless we decided to squeeze some time out. although i am not having enough sleep for this past week, but i think it's worth it. i wouldn't mention what is the main stuff at this moment of time. keep your in suspense for the time. hahas. but i can say, it's a feeling that i haven't been experiencing for quite some time le. i am so glad that you were the one who gave me such. u know who you are. i know at this time, this would go on as it is, and the feelings would only add on instead of decreasing. can't reveal too much at this moment in time. but as long as you know what it is. then it is sufficient le. alright then, for the meantime, ppl out there, take care. and nights. nearly a week...
Friday, April 21, 2006
has already been on attachment for nearly a week...its friday today...been to the school's call centre and TW too. both the environments, very different. but both are fun to be in. just that sometimes, it can be very tiring, esp for the retail side. with this attachment, i get to interact with different types of people, learn many things. then these few nights also not enough sleep la. so still feeling sleepy at this point of time when i am typing this entry.so for the time being. yeps. update till here first. going to TW tml still. officially starts tml..
Monday, April 17, 2006
well, it has been ages since i typed an entry everyday. it's my off day today. first day school reopens and i am off. hahas. off from attachment. yups, and i am off to school tml for my very first attachment, along with fennie too. and she said that i will be collecting my polo tee for work tml once i reached the school. and well, i am not working at the same place as malisa though we are being posted to the call centre. and those working at TW will be working on the same project. that's cool i supposed. well, i do miss school. miss those peeps from year 1. but most of us are in the same class though. so not to worry lots. and i guess i will be able to bump into ppl i know once i stepped into school tml. it's fun. should i list it this way? miss the times with them. but guess there is another bunch of them to have memorable times with. it's the group whom i am working at TW for. and most of the seniors are staying till wed only. so guess, since i am only reporting to TW on thurs, i have to learn to go on my own. well, that's the way to learn. finally spoke to stef tonight. after having so many days not talking to her, due to my training and my overseas trip. she called in the morning, but i was not around. so i decided to call her in the night. well, we do think alike at times, alright. alright then. i am turning in early for the night. it's a day tml. wonder how would it be like...hmmz...alright then. nites peeps. i'm back.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
well. arrived back into singapore this evening from genting. and i tell your. genting is extremely cold, even if you are on your jackets, once a breeze blew past...that's it. you will be stuck down there. it's cold. plus it has been raining. but nevertheless, it's a good trip up this time. at least its a short break before i officially start work, or i should say start school. but all in all, it's a nice trip to bond the family ties up.been pretty tired though. i still need to read through my training materials before getting back to TW. just so worried that i might forget any stuffs and lead to any unwanted stuffs happening in the office. well, becos we are not in school, can't afford to make such mistakes. read sino's blog just now. well, already told you le. so i am not going to mention further then what is needed. cos most of them is already in your mind le ar. u knew what am i gonna to say le. hahas. so just know when to take good care of yourself. then everything will be fine. your problems sometimes might be matters that i can't help. the only thing that i can do is perhaps listen. so u have to weigh them le and then note them in your heart and know what to do. alright then. take care ppl. nites. days are getting better..
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
well, second day at training today. yups. and we are already on attachment today. just that we were attached to our seniors in the office. i was with the wholesales dept. and my senior, shermin, was nice. she taught me everything that i was supposed to do, and wanted me to try picking up calls. but there was no calls when i was helping her to stand in a while. indeed there are many things to memorise. and i can tell for sure. i have forgotten something, something about the checking of seats for booking. i guess i need to msg shermin to ask her already. oh no...perhaps i was glad that i was not with the retail dept. their calls are on an incoming status. and what they have to learn is more than what i have to, though our training is the same. but i also have things to learn that they don't need to. and next week onwards, i wonder if my seniors would be back on the days that i am supposed to be in the office. cos today is shermin's last day le. that's why i need her number, to contact her for emergency. hahas. well, guess that the next 9 weeks for me would be enjoyable. though i need to go back to school and work too. but it's alright. and over this long weekend. i am off to malaysia. so need not contact me. i am not around in Singapore. hahas. and once i am back from there, my attachment starts, but mon is my day off. hahas. so at least i could rest for a day before my work really begins. alright then. need to go for last day of training tml. so need to turn in le. (though i am still addicted to 'ai qing mo fa shi', or Love of Magicians.) and daddy would be back in Singapore tml. waiting for his arrival. take care ppl. it has been ages since i was this tired...
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
i haven't been waking up at this time, 530 am..! and guess what. i woke up at this time today. and then i was off to school, then for the orientation briefing by the director and lecturers in charge. then we were deployed to our respective briefing centres. alright. almost everybody was deployed to different places. malisa was with me at the CSC. but i am with Tradewinds so i wouldn't be back in school everyday. alright. i am posted to tradewinds. time schedule is out le. i am off on mondays. tues and wed, i am going back to school's call centre, while thurs to sat, i will be at Tradewinds. and here it is the hours. in school, from 0830 to 1800. in Tradewinds, from 0900 to 1830, with exception on sat, 0900 to 1600. well, that's wouldn't be for 14 weeks, that's for sure. perhaps the best thing that i was posted out was that there is no restrictions with the attire. that was something that i was glad about. though there was lots to learn just for today, alone. yes. i have never know that SQ have so many direct flights off to so many places. well, we have to get to country codes though. hahas. not only that, all the tour packages...we might need some time to get adapt to. on top of that, we have to get used using international time as well. alright. it's been a tired day today. need to rest early. needed to be in office by 0900 tml morning. sometimes how i wish...
Monday, April 10, 2006
training officially starts off tml at the workplace itself. went back to school today for telephone training though. met up with the others. all from different diplomas. and we managed to click off quite well, considering that we were meeting for the first time. hahas.a new study year is beginning. suddenly felt a sense of worry or maybe classify that as uptight. maybe it would get better as time goes to interact with different people. but that's only for 6 months. after that, we will be back into the class that we were being posted to. which will have our normal clique. sometimes how i wish... i have never let go of his hand... i didn't do things that were acted on impulse... some things will never happen around me... i could clear some thoughts that but i can't... there are so many things that i wish...but it's all too late. perfection is a word found in my dictionary. but i have yet to attain it, how can i expect people around me to? phew...
Sunday, April 09, 2006
finally! i have completed stef's birthday gift...just today.yups. but there would be more work done further to it. hahas. i am so worried that i wouldn't be able to complete it by today. cos tml onwards i wouldn't be free le. hmph.tml has training in school in the afternoon for the external attachment. then tues, would be going to school early too. and that's when others are having their orientation for their TEP. while i will be starting my attachment a week earlier than others. well, need to pick up fast and learn fast too. =) holidays, can be announced that they are going to be over soon. very soon in fact. my school life is gonna to be hectic too. that means time spent with my family, my friends, would be cut down to a shorter time. well, maybe by not seeing each other more often would make us feel more attached to when we meet up again, well, this is for the friends aspect. and then my tv programmes, they would be greatly cut down too. gonna to miss the times spent for this whole holiday. wonder when will the next holiday arrive. alright then. take care ppl. perhaps i should...
Friday, April 07, 2006
well, guess what. received a piece of news today. should be happy about it though. instead of doing internal attachment in school for my second year(which i am supposed to), i have been posted to work for an external company for around 2 months or so. in this case, i need not get back to school for at least 2 months plus. well, their working days, quite flexible, every week, at least a day free...but things have to wait till they are confirmed. but working hours...well, ends a little later. so...ya. just have to adapt to it and life goes on. and only 6 are picked to work for the same external company out of 70 plus ppl. well, partially, contribute to luck i supposed. hahas. hope that everything would be fine. will be starting training and work next week onwards. i wonder if anyone that i knew would be getting involved in this? chances are limited but i am hoping. stef was the first to be informed of this matter, though she wishes me. but then somehow i felt something was missing. but ohwells, at least my best pal got to know it at first hand. so my holidays will soon be over. and its my 200th post today. and soon school is starting with me starting in a different environment. it will be a good start for me. for a new study year. everything would be different. and i presume there will be no time to care about other things. (even so, maybe a little time...hahas). well, and i will still blog as often as i could. so as to update a little every other day or so. i think that's it. take care ppl. finally!
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
well, went out with stef today. met at 12 noon at far east plaza. we have tried many times to escape going to town. but after a few outings, guess that town is a place that we can't avoid after all. hahas. alright, here it goes. we went walking around in far east, but noticed most shops are not opened yet. then we walked down, (we were practically doing strolling more than shopping.) then we were walking towards plaza singapura, and we decided to walk back to scotts for beef noodles. hahas. how fickled minded were we. and when we were done with lunch, we couldn't walked further, so we decided to take a bus down to plaza singapura. and upon reaching, there was when we decided that we shall watch a movie. finally! after 6 years of friendship...people hearing this might think that i am kidding, well...i'm not... but the times initially...not to our time schedule. but in the end, we managed to catch "Yours, Mine & Ours" at 1630.but the movie was a nice one, and yet funny. we simply enjoyed it. and definitely it was a nice start off for us as best pal for the first movie. hahas. in all, we had a tiring day. but the only thing we missed was to take photos. well, no suitable place to take. and we met ppl today. alif and shwa juan. all at plaza singapura. today. actually there were no shopping, we were practically eating more. hahas. imagine after we had beef noodles around 12 plus near 1, we had waffle with ice cream at Gelare around 3 plus, and then 4 plus, we were having popcorn and nachos chips. hahas. surprising huh. stef is gonna get fat sooner of later when she get out with me the next time. hahas. but guess the time we will meet up the next time should be either the weekends or should be during her birthday le. i don't wish to, but based on my school schedule...i think it's gonna to be like this, though stef's schedule this time is perfectly what it was when i was in year 1. well, sometimes, we just have to be flexible. what to do. stef, if u happen to read this, pls pls. if we don't meet up, at least there must be calls always. cos i m so worried that during my attachment, i might neglect you though i know you have your beau. but at least, leave me this best pal with a little space huh. hahas. lol. feeling tired. should be turning in soon. take care ppl. nites. another 2 weeks more.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
so tiring staying at home. and now my neighbours in the same block doing renovations, so without any alarm clock, i will be instantly woken up around 9 plus. but it's okay. i am getting out with stef tml. so not so bad i presume. hahas. but that waking time is consider late in terms when i have to get to school. and i think i am getting fatter le. so must take time to slim down when school starts. which i think it will. with the busy schedule...haiz. blog in more after the outing with stef tml. if i have the time. now then i realise.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
woke up early this morning around 5 plus to set off to the temple at sin ming area to pay our respects for my grandfather. i have been going to pay my respects for the past 11 years, including this year. and now then i realise, i do have so many things to tell my grandfather. maybe becos i know by telling him, no one will know what the matter will be. or perhaps it because growing up is a process, so naturally i know what to say and what not to. i didn't managed to tell him all, but the very least i told him i supposed the most important one. well, set that aside for the moment then.been in touch with many songs recently after being introduced in campus superstar. (anw, zhiyang was the cham.) some songs did touch right deep into the heart, but didn't really think about it. if not later think too much also no good. but thinking thru, i haven been thru to do things that i am not happy with. everything that i do, basically, i did ask myself, "was i happy doing that?" perhaps once thinking has straightened out that if i am happy with the stuffs that i was doing, then what others say doesn't matter. and in my previous entry, i admit i was a little harsh in terms of words and tone. but if i hasn't been thru such situations, well, i wouldn't offer this advice, because the consequences are very serious. one will understand when one has been thru it. to show care and concern is always easy, but the action can only be done within oneself. perhaps not even your loved one can helped. if it does help, then its the psychological effect then. side track a little. maybe with my best pal having her partner around, makes me more independent than before. i admit, i am very dependent on my best friend and bf in the past. but now, being single, makes me able to take things much easier than before, able to decide on decisions that wouldn't affect anyone. but i am trying to adapt, since i was so dependent for such a long time. hahas. alright. that's enough. feeling tired. nites ppl. perhaps i have missed out a point or something.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
on my previous entry, a mention of the 8 points as expected of my perfect man...i think i missed out another, trust. with no trust, no point moving on further. i was reminded upon seeing my sister's. because many relationships couldn't take up the trust test, leading to the eventual break off.sino. with the new beginning of a new month. people who know how important life should know it best not to torture yourself with unnecessary stuffs. if you clearly know where is your problem, find the solution to solve it, and its not by using some irrelevant stuffs to mix it further. take an example, medical problems. if you know what's the problem, use proper medication. i further stressed, proper medication! no point mentioning that you just had another overdosage, others will show their care and concern for you, but i can clearly state here that i wouldn't. because you don't know what's the importance of life, esp. you are under the guidance of god. you should prevent this even more. but you didn't! to me, it's not whether i bother to show my care and concern as a friend of yours, but in fact, this is called disappointment! but i have this feeling, after this, you might just read it already then you might do another overdosage another time. perhaps i shouldn't waste my time in telling you stuffs over and over again. if you are not tired, i can tell you i am tired of repeating this over and over again. yes i am. whether you take it or not, i already told you it's your choice eventually. i shouldn't continue offering the same advice cos' ppl will get tired eventually, not you alone, even those who read it. alright i think that's it for tonight. i am going off for my tv programme. take care people. nights. |
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