Let me hear you call my name.
Jacinta.July 1988 just the way you are. simplistic yet loving. More than words.
I know you love me, too.
*year-end trip with sweets!*graduation trip? *sleepovers! *wedding planner classes! *early childhood classes? *longchamp/kate spate bag *watch *a pair of new sunglasses You were here too?
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happy new year!
Monday, January 30, 2006
haven't been blogging for days already. been busy preparing for the new year though. hahas. well, first day yesterday. nice day though. red packets. went to relative's place and then to daddy's friend's place, drank whisky coke, funny taste, but it was all rites after drinking a few more mouthfuls. hahas. new year period is like this, the same routine runs every year. at the same time, projects datelines are also rushing us, leaving us with so little time to celebrate, cos most of the time, we are doing our projects though.with the new year in process, next will be the exams. ppl wanna to enjoy themselves first, which include me too. hahas. don't wanna to think about the exams yet. hahas. all rites, i need to get out already. fill your up another time! -- making a difference.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
recently, my eyebags starts to fall heavy very early at around 11 plus in the night. it is not always this case though. it did makes me wonder what happens to me. really. i was always telling myself that i will put this off, definitely, but till actions start to surface, then i knew it was just an excuse to bluff myself through. i am just another girl who has lost the natural smile on her, the smiles that she puts on, are perhaps just the superificials. but actually how many people would really know what is going on? well, sometimes not even my best buddy could know what was going on, how can i expect others to know? isn't it too much from me? the thought of taking just a small step to start afresh seems to leave so far away from me, but yet i know, it is whether i can do it or not. since young i have been decisive, but right now, it is just a blank image right up there. most of the times, it is just so easy to say 'no' to someone or something, but to hear a 'yes' just take ages when you want to hear it from the special one that you longed for. wounds that were created didn't went off, but it left me with the best reminders to treasure myself even more.because if i don't learn to love myself first, how can i expect someone else to love me? -- it's just a line between perfect and imperfect.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
been feeling slightly uptight due to the upcoming projects' datelines coming up. but maybe that's a good thing though. it just happen to cover some other unwanted emotions to the corner. actually in my eyes, what is perfect and what is imperfect. well, normally people do not look at things in the perfect way, or rather, they will start to look for the imperfect things first before any other thing else. isn't it always the case?all rites. i think that's enough. -- it is not reaching in any case.
Monday, January 23, 2006
well, hasn't been blogging for a few days though. been quite busy with the new year stuffs. and nevertheless, i am still hogging on my latest vcd series added to the list, Devil Beside You. hahas. it is just so nice to watch. hahas.all rights, enough of the shows and vcds. back to work. school work i mean. tutorials are huge in amounts this week especially. i wonder how tutors have time to complete all those in two or one hour(s). seriously. and the datelines of projects, well, frankly. they are driving me crazy soon. but it is still within the scope of my ability to handle. yups. and i just received an email reply from my long bestie yesterday after sending her an email a few days ago. its just so memorable of the times that my bestie and i have during of times of friendship. this year marks the tenth year though. and we are still that close when we meet up or when we don't meet up. we decide to meet up during our hols which is around the corner. though in the emails. we do talk about how's life. and some little secrets. and before the hols, marks the exams dates. which is less than a month in fact. and preparation...hmmz. in the midst of preparing it. hehe. maybe these few days makes me feel so tired that my eye bags are heavy too. perhaps it is due to the work or maybe it's just emotional problems that are unecessary for worries. but girls are always girls. we tend to get fuss over minor things that happen around us. well, it's normal no matter one is attached or not. there will be problems for us to get worry over nothing. hahas. funny isn't it. all rights, i am off to my tutorials. oh ya. anw, my EWS ica 2 wasn't too bad. at least there was an improvement. ;) -- placing it on the line.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
econs project has been postponed a week later then the expected one. which means it is to be presented after the new year! then my web-based portfoilo is going on fine. but as for writing ICA 3, maybe have to buck up a little though. hahas. well, will rush when time comes. will be involved in the morning shift for nyp's open house tml. well, not very crowded in the morning, but i think afternoon will be fine. i supposed so. went to visit the open house today too. and i saw leon...! hahas. he looks better in person. ;)horoscope of the cancer sign, they are supposed to be gentle and homely. but they are too, sensitive. is that the reason why my emotions are often on the line. it seems to feel like a emotion that can be evoked easily if someone lights it on. everything seems to look and feel so fine just like any other days in the past. but it's not the case for me these days. the air that i breathe in starts to dumpen, the moves that i take start to weigh, i clearly know what's the reason that is affecting me. and perhaps i have admitted and resign it to fate to decide. but it didn't change the way my life can move on as in the past. my life is not in a mess neither it is in a fix. it is just that i hasn't found the right medicine to use it on the reason that has been affecting me. well, hopefully things will go fine for me, after the new year. -- at least it is over.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
phew. finished marketing presentation and stats ica 2 today. a huge huge relief. but econs is upcoming next. then i have p team meeting tml. it should be about the open house that nyp is having from thurs to sat. and sly is coming over on sat at 2 to nyp, but i have family events to attend to. so i will not be there. haiz.then still have to start my exam revision since it is another 1 month..?? so must buck up to enter my ideal specialisation. stress hasn't really arrived since it is still another month away. but it will soon come along. well, i shouldn't be feeling this funny feeling though. but nevertheless, things are still going on as usual. life is just so complicated. sometimes it can be the best moments, but at just the turning point, it changes the fate of it. it is just saddening. all rites. goodnites ppl. -- time is just insufficient.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
this weekend, is not giving me time to rest though. marketing presentation preparations, studying for ica 2 for stats. and best of all, they fall on the same day!! then after that, i have econs to rush for. which our group hasn't touch a bit at all. hahas. isn't that fantasic.and due to that of the above. i have to give yesterday's jwss cca open house a miss. it is a pity, not able to accompany stef along to go. but i will make it up when there is another event coming up, which i supposed is the EMDD in the month of march at the victoria theatre. so ex-jwss peeps can just tag at my board when there is any update about this. tks. hahas. and furthermore, the weather just makes me feel even more tired than usual. makes me feel like sleeping. hahas. but work still have to be done isn't it. all rites. that's it. need to get back to stuffs needed to be done.-- perhaps its the last time.
Friday, January 13, 2006
well, finally finish the ppt for marketing. and here i am tonight, doing my speech. and definitely studying my stats for tues. and everything has to fall on tues. its just so packed a day. doing a countdown, it's perhaps another 2 weeks to the chinese new year, and 5 weeks to the exams! oh no...that's bad. that means i need to get my notes out for studying. yups. that's it. and hopefully pls. i am so tired in asking people to leave or whatever it is. perhaps it is my conscience starting to act up or what. but i am really tired. really. or maybe because of my projects' datelines that are around, which makes me feel so so tired. and perhaps a little unstable in emotions. being the bad person is never easy, one will have their hearts soften one day. it's true that if i am bias against someone, no matter how much of good stuffs that person have, i will never agree to them. now then i realised to look at things at a different angle is just so hard, if i do not hurt someone here, i will another there. i know trying will make the difference, but, things aren't just so easy as what i have imagined it to be. sometimes, it is just luck to meet people who doesn't act according to situations you know. and when you are forced under circumstances, people will be forced to act differently. well, after reading alvin's previous blog entries, it make me feel so bad about. i didn't meant what i really say. it's just that at that time, the situation just has to be like this, in order to 'keep distances' away. all rites. i need to get back to my speech. goodnites. -- learn to treasure.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
it's been another raining day today. isn't it just dampen the mood of people doing things? with things that are happening, with friends' relatives having to pass on, it makes me learn to treasure people that are around me esp. my grandparents. i am just so thankful. first formal presentation next week. hasnt been doing oral comm for some time already. just need some practice though. oh ya. and i wore specs to school today all rites. cos my contacts tear into half. and i went to make another half year supply today after school. and so lucky they had my degree. so i need not wait and wear specs to school tml. hahas. adding another to my new year resolution, it is to see things from a different angle, to understand things from another point of view. to make myself a more carefree and cheery person to be. all rites. that's it. good nites ppl.-- trying to make a difference.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
went to jp today along with family and shu ting! so fun having friends around to accompany you for shopping. and yups. settled my other set for new year. hahas. got that purple top from double index already. and at the same time, ting got herself a pair of shoes for the new year as well. and it did look nice on her. yups, it did. got mummy her advanced birthday gift. it did cost quite a sum, but since it is for mummy, it doesn't matter in any case. oh ya. and shan rebonded her hair!! makes her look younger though. hahas. slowly we will get used to her new look yeah. shouldn't be a prob adapting to that. ok. i think that's all. nites ppl. -- it is just a matter of time.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
was practically whole day at home, as it was raining one whole day!!! dear me, hopefully it doesn't when i am having school or out this week. pray hard. then went on completing my tutorials and my cousins came over. so have to take care of them while the adults did their stuffs. but they were very obedient, and didn't disturb me when i was doing my stuffs. hahas.well, for now, since it is a new year. just pass me some time, some memories would be forgotten in my file of memories. similarly i have learnt from a friend of mine that a once failure in a relationship is not worth the effort to go in once more. well, diff ppl diff prospective of it. i also learnt that best friends no matter how far each other are, or even just to communicate once a year, as long as you know he/she is there, one can be sure that the frenship still stays. as long as whenever u are in trouble, that friend knows and rush off to see how are you, u know he/she is the one. having to say all these, it is just to prove that a friendship can be very strong, but it can also be very fragile. anytime. it can just break that thin yet invisible trend of bond. it hasn't been a good year start this year. things that have happened have made me understand even more in my family, between family ties, and learn how to cherish each other, regardless of how bad things were in the past. mummy always say, i can change who i want my best friend to be, who my other partner to be, but my parents and my family are things that would stay with me until the day i passed on. it is for life. no one can choose who they want for their parents, who they want for their sibilings. it is fated. so ppl learn to cherish the ppl around you esp yr family members. don't wait till the day they are unable to reply you and then to regret of why in the past, u didn't do this or that. all rites. good nite ppl. -- to choose or to decide?
Saturday, January 07, 2006
just went to give tuition this morning. pretty good i suppose. nice start for the new year. then as usual. my weekends. tv. tutorials. outings. seems to be the same as what it is the previous year.well, following them on doesn't seem to be a bad thing too. that i suppose. just learnt something. you can plan what you want to do for the future as long as you planned them well in the present, but you cannot plan for your past because they are already over. doesn't it sounds logical? well, to me, it does. we practically have no time to regret whatever things that we did in the past. so no point thinking back. ppl have to move on. and we cannot presume that by waiting, that particular thing would return or what. and the same thing, ppl do move on and doesn't wait too long for certain things. but we still can change the future based on decisions that we make. all rites. aside those logic things. i still need my new year clothes!! hahas. as days goes back. i m more decided to get that top. will drag either stef or mummy to get it. hahas. off to do something else now. nites ppl. -- some things are just...
Thursday, January 05, 2006
received the econs project today. this time, with a total of 6 group members. also received the marks for econs ica 1. B+. well, supposely, not too bad i think. but as compared to what it is in secondary school. it is not the expectation somehow. don't know what is lacking. but sense that there is something missing somehow.now wondering whether i should get this purple top from double index. hahas. well, shall see how and then decide. still missing a set of clothes for the new year. so gonna to crack my brain and think hard for the missing set. all rites. i dun have anymore to blog for tonight. and somehow. a little tired. that's it. -- it's a tiring day...maybe becos'...
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
well, first day of school. gradually feeling a little more tired than usual. couldn't adapt to the schooling situation yet. hahas. yups, that's it. then rushing projects. hahas. but we do still have time for a little fun though. then i am having accts and writing ica tml manz. so stressed out. things are getting better, i supposed. but i am feeling aching over my body. it would take me a few days to get back into situation i guess. chinese new year is just end of this month, and that's it. red packets and i will be seeing daddy again. this time, in less than 4 weeks' time. but the arrival of the chinese new year would thus signify the arrival of my semestral exams. haiz. which is less than 2 months' time? well, start working hard, no more so much of a tv addict already. yups, need to do revision for tml's icas and after that, my dreamland. hahas. goodnite ppl. -- it is not the right start...
Monday, January 02, 2006
well, haven't been blogging for days. that i know. been busy though. since the first day of this very year of 2006 ya. do not wish to mention it here. it is not too good a thing to mention though ya. school's starting tml. oh well, time for fun is over. but things are gonna to get as busy as usual. that i supposed. projects are gonna to get me real busy. well, but i set datelines for the group ya. ;) it is only the second day of the new year. and so many things have happened. i wonder how things are going to get on through this year. just pray hard that things do get through well. pls. but things that happened around has taught me many experiences and lessons that made me reflect on my thinking more than in the past. yups. that's it. nevertheless, perhaps things would start out fine tml when i am in school though. no matter how bad things are going to be. they will be over, because there will always be a solution right there for us to discover. goodnight ppl.-- |
Goodbye.
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