Let me hear you call my name.
Jacinta.July 1988 just the way you are. simplistic yet loving. More than words.
I know you love me, too.
*year-end trip with sweets!*graduation trip? *sleepovers! *wedding planner classes! *early childhood classes? *longchamp/kate spate bag *watch *a pair of new sunglasses You were here too?
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end of the month.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
didn't blog in yesterday as my notebook is giving me some problems even till now...i can't seem to blog in my entries from my notebook...argh...so i have to use my the other computer...poor me, anyone able to help? cos my notebook always shows cannot find server when i want to create posts...when the internet connection is perfectly fine...hmph...ok...today...29 sept...my bro's birthday...haha...today baking pizza for his dinner...hahas...so fast, end of the month le...another new month is gonna to start le...then it wil be school reopen for me... feeling much better le...emotions aren't too bad already...should be able to adapt..hopefully...but i start to feel an unknown sense of tired...truth is always painful...but people still want to hear it...and suffer the pain...i want to stay back as a gal to be pampered...i didn't know that the path that is in front of me is gonna to be so painful, so tedious...say it, i am still a small gal at heart, be it said to be childish, going through the path, esp. the love life, perhaps it's the worst...i might be able to think for others, at the same time, i need someone to think for me...i might not be so strong after all...there would still be a day that i will break down...does anyone know that? i seemed to be getting weaker each day, i dun seem to have the strength to carry on as what i used to be...tears seemed to be held back, it has been a long time since i last had a good cry...when will the next time arrive? -- haiz.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
27 sept...i seemed to be counting off the days...had around 7 hours of slp yesterday...for me not to think about too many things...not gonna to be easy...really...perhaps i am not the one that people really think of ba...maybe...how dumb, naive can i be? -perhaps i am...i should have know my own character, but maybe people sees it better than i do...i just dunno how long can i keep my hidden emotions...so many of them...well, some things are just not meant to be mention rite here...maybe becoz i could think far...a blessing? -i dun feel it so...yups...perhaps i am crapping all thru' out...then sorry...cos i dun think anyone can understand what is the actual thing that is going thru...should i name it terrible or unbearable...? aiya...just dun bother...cast it aside...did housechores today...didn't know it's so tiring when you don't have enough slp and you are working urself out...haha...some time since he's online le...but i think...it doesn't matter anymore to me le...-maybe. a day...busy...
Monday, September 26, 2005
another busy day for me...practically waking up in the morning at 730 am...then was so busy till 2 plus in the afternoon...till...stef called me and finally i was able to relax, sit down and talk to her...so so tired today...then my contacts...not feeling too well ba cos i have not been wearing for around 1 week le ba...haha...brought the lime magazine today...read through it...anw, its junyang and candyce on the cover...haha...(know why i buy it now..? haha...) well, then some questions for best friends or couples.... 1. favourite pastime? 2. greatest strength? 3. greatest weakness? sometimes loving someone is so scary...some people feel that if it is gonna to be hurtful then they rather love themselves even more...i hope it is not going to happen to me...well...i wan my love life to go on as fated...i seem to trust alot on faith and fate...but it is always somehow accurate...maybe i have spotted the right guy...but was it him...or maybe not? -well, well, well...complicated... my choice?
Sunday, September 25, 2005
25 Sept..hmmz...familiar though...i know...lao pa's birthday..!! dun be mistaken, he is someone of the same age...anw, i have already send my wishes le...well, today, went tuition, got my pay for this month le...haha...so happy...getting out tml again ..with mummy to settle some stuffs...no more slacking in bed for tml in the morning le...haiz...my gastric is affecting me these few days, dunno wat happen...then my old injury...is acting up again...haiz... people who are in love always believe that a couple should be honest and truthful to each other...again...sadly, the reality is always cruel, no matter how each other promised to be truthful, there are bound to be matters that cannot be revealed...becoz they dun wan their partner to think otherwise...but the problem is...it is always impossible, the more you dun wan them to think about it, the more they will..it's just something that you cannot control...and i always hear that the higher expectations you expect of your future partner, the more you'll get the opposite...well, not proven, dunno whether it is true... Don't leave now Not yet There were time we regret And I'm sorry Somehow I only Wanted to make you proud If I could only let you know I'd give up everything I own For just one more day with you There's nothing I wouldn't do I could not let it pass me by If I make every sacrifice To bring me back your love If only we could live twice If only we could live twice When you told me I froze It still echoes In my soul Please forgive me If I didn't say I love you Every single day Nobody told me we'd only get one chance I didn't know that our tide would turn so fast Why we have to say goodbye I don't understand I could not let it pass me by Nothing I give to sacrifice To bring me back your love If only we could live twice If only we could live twice We'll meet in another life If only we could live twice Aren't they familar lyrics of a certain song..." Live Twice"...this is a song some time ago..but it is a nice song...really nice one...anw, it is the song on my blog now...if i could let someone know what one should know, maybe...but now it has to pass me first...till i know my feelings... so bored...
Saturday, September 24, 2005
firstly, happy birthday shan...!!! if u happen to read my blog...saturday...hmmz...wat else can i be doing...slacking at home, watching tv...woke up at 8 in the morning...must be surprised rite...suddenly i wake up so early when i love sleeping the most...haha...no choice...mummy wake me up de... then talk to stef online...she was in school doing her logistics stuffs...so we shall meet up next saturday...a week later...haha... then not feeling too well, my flu and cough are all right le...well, just need alot of rest...seems to have no strength to do anything...;) but i stil have my tuition on for my student tml...it seems like every week i am talking about this manz... all rites then i think i shall blog in more tml then... p.s reply to yijun to what he have written on the tagboard... hey...you shouldn't choose to give up on true love becoz you have met up with an unhappy incident that impacts you with the worst ending...i can tell you this is not the worse...it's just becoz you are not willing to admit it as you put in all yr effort and yet what you get back is that...i still believe to choose it...becoz i know it will come some day..."you might not hold on to something that is the best in the world, but that something that you hold is the best in yr eyes..." it is up to you whether you want to believe it not...if you choose not to, then it definitely not come true...some people might feel that its just crapping...you can think so too...but still it is yr own choice to make this choice...and doesn't mean when you are happy, the other partner will be happy too, and thus yr relationship will be happy, yr two will be happy in love...most of the time, sadly, it's not...i dun want to admit this...but it's just that the reality is always cruel...memories are supposed to be pretty things that you keep in yr mind to remind you of the beautiful past that you have before, not for you to forget it and take it that it has never happened before...be grateful that at least it did happen in your life before, or phrase it properly, if you think that it has been a serious and beautiful one, the more you should keep those memories...whether to treat this as something that you might think of, or as crap, choose it yourself...but just last sentence, trust is a kind of feeling when you know that you can believe in what you have read or heard from someone around you...that person might be your best pal, friend, family, or even just someone that you might have only known for a day...becoz in the end, it still lies in you and your heart to believe... hmmz...
Friday, September 23, 2005
today...nothing unusual happened...everything is the same that happens everyday during my this period of holidays...23 sept...slight significance...too many dates to rmb...girls are lyk that de..wat to do...since guys' memory are always weak...girls always have to rmb dates more than guys have to...haha..;) 23 sept this day has a nice beginning...plain yet sweet...but the ending was something that perhaps it was not supposed to be...well, that was wat...2 years ago...well, no point mentioning the whole thing through again... to yijun..i am not that old yet ok...keep on rushing me to get attached...haha...;) u this fellow...u take yr time to heal and till u find another gal that suits u...for me, i am still waiting for my special one...he is somewhere in the world ba... reviewing the moments...
Thursday, September 22, 2005
woke up as late as usual...haha...but at that point of time, mummy would have screamed out loud, asking me to wake up...haha...got used to it already...family ties...let's do a moments review bout mine then...daddy is always overseas, barely seeing him 50 days a year...mummy has a 2-in-1 position in singapore...supposed communication is much easier to mummy...i wasn't like this, not so open to mummy about things like relationships...no...that was the topic that i wouldn't talk to mummy even when i am in secondary school..i would keep them all to myself...perhaps mummy has learned to be more open-minded, so communication nowadays is never a problem...not even speaking to her about relationships...perhaps i treat her like a friend more, i don't talk to her as in a daughter to a mummy whereas we talked, we joked...but we know our limits...as for daddy, in my mind, he is my mr-yes man...haha...(but again, we have our limits too...) but if you were to ask me to speak to daddy like what i do to mummy, seems to be impossible...well, perhaps that all need time...rites...time again... seeing frens getting attached, is a happy thing...seemed to be breathing in love more than anything cos love is in the air...haha...to review the moments for love ar...most of them are too painful to think about...i might not be blind in relationships, but i admit, some are just perhaps decisions on impulse...cos my thinking at that time not mature enough...but relationships are just like needles, it is painful when you accidentally injured yourself, but to complete the whole thing, you rather get injured many times...perhaps being injured too many times, that's why it is harder to fall in love...perhaps? becoz i am afraid to get hurt...maybe? trust, commitment, faith, feelings, too many things maybe...but once u fall in love, the feeling is very different...;) all rites...that's it then... well..
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
woke up this morning with a headache, so i just fall back onto the bed to sleep when mummy wakes me up...then it was 10 plus already when i opened my eyes...having no choice, i dragged myself out of bed...it was bad yesterday nite...becoz i was tossing on my bed till 1 plus...becoz my nose was blocked and i found slight difficulty in breathing...haiz...blocked nose is no kidding matter..really...so hard to fall asleep with blocked nose...so again i missed today's training as mentioned...hopefully no offence to the teachers...so countdown...another 3 weeks more, and we are back to school again for semester 2...haha...time flies... and for today...practically i walked to which room in my house, i will fall asleep on the bed...cause ppl who are sick are like this...haha..cannot blame la... then was on the phone with stef just now...for around one hour plus ba...i think...then we spoke almost everything, anything that one can think of...we practically share everything...secrets, personal matters, so on...haha..;) envious not...haha...but its hard to find a fren that you can speak anything to...so when there is one, must grab tightly...haha...i think i m crapping again...oh well...;) anyway, stef, just rmb no matter what will happen, the word is trust... all rites i think that's all for today le ba...me? off to watch tv le...haha... ...
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
feeling slightly better today...gonna to miss tml's training session too...cos i m still not feeling too good...still coughing...must be good gal...dun go and spread the virus around to people...;)then talk to yijun bout lots of things yesterday...he is supposed feeling better le...hopefully...too many things happening...allowing many having no space to breathe... then stef came over to take my vcd from me...then accidentally sabo someone la...sorry lor...;) but my buddy...happily in love le...haha...but they dun wan to stablize it further...anw, its btw 2 of them...but as a buddy, its just concern... for me, feelings are getting complicated...dunno where feelings shd be place at...i did spent time thinking...but there is no answer to it...small knot...haha...*trying to untie it...to find answer...hopefully... today...
Monday, September 19, 2005
today's session...erm...a...hmmz...better not say la...its not too good huh...yr shd know le...today's weather was best for sleeping...best to lie in bed the whole day...then today only shan, ting and i went, lis was having fever, alvin didn't pick up his phone, alex...heavy rain...dun wish to get out...then the attendance was lyk...better not mention it...well, tml...hard to predict, but right now, i m having a slight throat pain plus cough le...so most probably i wil give tml's session a miss...this holiday, i m practically a TV addict...watching tv shows all day...then filling myself with all kinds of junk food...maybe that's why i m sick le...haha...then stef is so busy with her overseas thingy...must see when she is free...haha... haiz...
Sunday, September 18, 2005
another week begins tml...left with another 4 weeks before semester 2 starts...been slacking at home today..except 2 hours at my student's place, teaching tuition...these few days, i have been handling the housework, somehow got tired le...cos sis is injured, mummy is injured too...just so terrible...was looking for things jus now at my cupboard, then happened to find some things of the past...all of them looked familiar...but didn't managed to find the thing that i wanted...haha...well, some ppl prefers to hold on to promises, but promises has 2 outcomes, one, promises are meant to be broken when said...two, promises wil come true when they are supposed to...and doesn't mean that if you have protected the one you love from painful moments, it would be memorable...and becoz you are that, it makes it a unique journey to walk through with that person...but sometimes becoz of what two persons went through, it makes the journey that they walked more fruitful and memorable than usual...hopefully the person (know who you are) happens to read this part...;) hopefully you do understand, though i know you have your reasons, i have mine too...;) ok that's it...need to turn in le, tml need to wake up at 7 plus... ...
Saturday, September 17, 2005
today is derrick's birthday!!! haha...today...nothing much ba..except to take care of my sis ...then tml i have to give tuition...haha...then next week, going back to school...so fast one week gone le...another week comes along...nothing to blog for the moment le...tml then blog ba...haha... busy day...
Friday, September 16, 2005
well, today is indeed a busy day...let's see...i received a call from my sis saying that she fell in sch and got injured...then my mummy was not around at the moment, so i called on a cab and rushed to my sis sch to pick her up then off to the polyclinic, then later along with my mummy to the hospital...must be wondering what happened to my sis rite? she suffered a minor ligament tear on her fourth finger on her right hand...so she need to rest at well...then i must help her...cos her middle and fourth fingers are bandaged together...perhaps i was lucky that i am not going for tml's bbq though i know its a farewell party for ms koh...but my sis needs me more than having me to attend the bbq...many things happened this holiday of mine...too many to list le...haha...have happy matters and unhappy incidents...so occupied this holiday...haha...dun need to find a job and work le...i have to coach my brother in his studies, help my sis in hers too cos she is having streaming this year... and while chatting with stef last night, we both have a place that we both miss alot...see when we have the time, we shall go there...;) i miss the quietness...haha... -the world doesn't wait for you to change and rotate, even if you don't change, the world will still rotate everyday...because life goes on...- erm...
Thursday, September 15, 2005
today...15 of Sept...marks out, perhaps, the worse day till now since holidays...its the release of my exam results...even though my best buddy, stef, ends her last paper today...she must be grinning happily manz...i had all my modules passed...i had a sense of relief and yet a little tiny bit of disappointment...perhaps i have expected more from myself, or maybe i had not worked hard enough...though daddy and mummy are feeling all right, knowing my results...shall try harder for the next exam...not feeling too well today...my gastric area seems to feel a little of pain...but i supposed it should be ok... and i was sneezing on my bed early this morning...wonder who is scolding me...haha...just kidding...but my sneezing was bad today...affecting my throat somehow...but now...much ok already... supposed to get out with stef one of the days...haven contact her yet...then next week, mon to wed, training...so have to go back to school...and this holiday i seem to injure myself very often, first is my leg, then now my toe...what's the problem with me...? this holiday i have lots of wishes i wanna complete...first, my removal of braces...then the purchasing of albums...of cos i wan to go the project superstar concert on 30th Sept, but its slightly expensive...then 5566's concert at the end of the year...should be on the 17th Dec at the Singapore Expo, Max pavillion..think so...also expensive ba...most expensive ticket is $148...anyone willing to sponsor...? haha...i know i would be asking for fun...all rites...just kidding...;) well, yups... that's it i think for today... a...
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
mid of the week...wat have i done today...hmmz...woke up...took my breakfast...check email and found a mass email sent by alex...about the bbq...dun think i m going ba...then found out that it wil be farewell party for ms koh too...reason not stated...gonna to miss her lots manz...then the exam results are out tml at 6 am...u think i wil wake up at 6am jus to see my results? i m also scared...but the results are already set...no use worrying although the human nature is that we do get tensed up before results...just pray hard that the results are ok enough for a pass, not for a sub paper at least...bless me...!!! oh ya...yijun requested for a gift from me for his 16th birthday this year...well, i know wat to give le...shh...keeping this a secret first...haha...;) met ker huiling, my pri sch fren, at jurong entertainment centre...she was shocked...haha...but we did have a good chat... -project superstar news- junyang is gonna to have his solo album by next year between jan to march...haha...;) he temporary stopped his furthering of studies for his Honours...to concentrate on music and hosting...
so many things...
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
woke up as late as yesterday...as usual...haha...then while checking up my email this morning...received an email from...guess who? Mrs Gina Weers!!! there is p team training next week, from mon to wed...each training 2 hours only...not so bad ya...wonder those who are working can make it not...alex n alvin are put in charge to take note who is not able to attend this time...not rong ci already...haha...;) then today...practically was at home...continue on my cross-stitch work...then tml might have to wake up early...cos mummy will definitely wake me up early...!! poor me...another new day to go tml...dunno wat's in store for me tml...;) first time mummy screaming at me, for using the com...haiz... a new week begin...
Monday, September 12, 2005
a new week begin again...woke up at 1030 am this morning...slacking in bed...haha...what have i done today...hmmz...changed a new blogskin for my blog...sunset picture...supposed better than the previous one...? then went for a swim in the afternoon...it has been such a long time since i went for a swim...taking the chance that i m having my holidays...haha...then after that, i have been focusing on the piece of cross-stitch...haha...show ur when i m done with it...haha... managed to talk to stef yesterday after a few days...first time so many days nv talk to her...feels funny...haha...ppl now dun need to eat sweets le...everyday someone provide sweetness can le...sweet until can get tooth decay le...haha...;) anw, enough of that, we are gonna to meet up once u are done with yr exams...already starting missing u...rmb, cannot be unfair...i need yr attention too...not only him leh...haha...just kidding ya...;) i m glad that whenever i m feeling down, friends are always around to show their concern...read the tagboard, ur would know...maybe not every of my frens are there, but the specific fews...ur know who yr are, definitely stef wht on the phone, msn, sms...but others on the tagboard would be nurul, sino, ronald, and more...real thanks...i m feeling much better le...and tks...tc, ur advise on msn these days...though most of them can't be used...haha...for sino, i believe u can solve ur probs by urself le...can be independent le...so dun need me...and whenever yr mood swings are on, dun talk to anyone first..not everyone can take it de...and rmb not only u have mood swings, everyone has it too...;) -updated at 1202 am- promised stef that her birthday gift for next year...something special...and i must start preparing le...and she also told me if time allows, she is gonna to learn something...;) nth more...
Sunday, September 11, 2005
didn't blog in yesterday as i was busy...then these two days, my maigraine headache came back again...and it was terrible...it was very bad...plus my leg injury...it is recovering le...but it is also the most painful stage...then these two days, up with a slight flu...haiz...then sent off my china relatives at the airport early in the morning...many of my relatives came to send them too...i didn't know i have so many distant cousins till yesterday...and one of them is studying in the University of London majoring in physics and chemistry...and mummy ask him to get info for business management...well, whether to study overseas...shall decide when my poly school term of 3 years officially ends... this holiday i dun think i m getting a job le...my tutor job is fine...and my student can only make it on weekends...thinking of picking up a skill...was thinking of knitting though mummy says it is gonna to be hard...and nowadays most gals dun do it le...well, for me...i feel its ok...i m starting on a new cross stitch piece now...then must exercise to keep my figure well, must be thinking vain rite...well, its normal wat...perhaps a swim would be good...;) everything seems to get on fine...sunrise...one of my very best favourite view everytime...but to view it with different ppl gives one different feel...it is best viewed with yr loved one, then followed by yr best buddy...then alone...but i think for the time being, nope, i dun think i m viewing it...the feeling of viewing alone gives one two prospective...one, the feeling of being lonely...two, the feeling of peaceful and calm...depends on how one views it... oh ya before i forget, 5566 is coming to singapore on the 17th sept for an autograph session...venue i nv take note...and they only sign on the 3rd album "hao jiu bu jian" 1st version...haha... tired at heart...
Friday, September 09, 2005
didnt blog in yesterday cos i was busy and nth to blog in actually... blog in early this morning becoz i feel that tonite i m not free again...haha...yesterday went for tuition and my tuition kid was not feeling too well, so the tuition session was brought to a relaxed mode...then shan called me to ask me wht i wanna take up job lobang...work on weekends...but my tuition hours cannot be changed becoz my student can only make it on weekends...so i turned it down le...then yesterday many of my relatives came over...then so busy manz..and the hse is so crowded... even i myself didnt notice until a fren told me that i dun use singlish so much these days le..in msn i mean...really...? i m really tired at heart...i dunno how long can i withstand still...but the prob is i dunno wat is bothering me to make me so tired...ppl often say time...i can all the time in the world...but even that, i dun find an answer...does it matter if i have all the time...? and i have a physiological barrier that till now i still cannot overcome...and perhaps i will never be able to overcome...cos it takes lots of courage, determination and motivation to progress it on... -updated at 635 pm- just surf the net and managed to read off some project superstars news...!! guess what! i have three pieces of news to share!! 1. i think i mention it before, the semi finalists are coming up with an album this month...and song list is out...my personal favourites who are, kelly, junyang, derrick...respectively the songs included for them will be, bei ai de nu ren, jie kou, tian kong...definitely i m buying le...!!! need to save money le...expected to be out by end of this month...! 2. channel u is coming up with a new variety show called the superfunkies...in chinese is "jue dui da wan jia" this show will present the clothes, food, entertainment, music and hangouts, these 5 main categories...host by 5 main hosts and 5 segmental hosts...the main hosts are junyang, candyce, sin huey, jason and silver...while the segemental hosts are leon, william, ruth, chanel and sugianto...interesting rite? and each segement has two hosts...it will start on mon, oct 3 at 830 pm... 3. and lastly, junyang has been signed on with Universal Music, making him colleagues with kelly...!!! so, he do have a chance to have his own solo album... of cos, i m getting his solo album, cos his voice is good... must be thinking rite...i m crazy over them le...but if they are with good voices...why not...haha... everything is fine or not?
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
its the mid of the week...tml going to give tuition again...been slacking at home these few days...was sleeping till 11 am almost every morning without fail..haha...yr must be thinking lazy bum!!! the feeling of being loved is always better than to love someone...it is jus an impressive yet invisible power...or perhaps heaven just like to play tricks on ppl like us...the best thing always come when one least expected..also...things also happened when u gave up on one and the one falls on you..perhaps i shd be lucky this has never happen to me before yet...and hopefully it doesn't...the worse thing that could happen is that the one that u love doesn't love u at all, not one bit...that is depressing..very in fact...or perhaps the one for u might be just near, but words from the mouth might just let u miss the chance to grab hold of someone...i m not so lucky like some of my frens...they enjoy the love that one can give...to love is to commit..to love is to trust..being loved is a blessing...being loved is a gift...when will my perfect gift arrive...? i m using some time to think about tis... well, some might think that i m crapping again...watever it is...its a thinking... earlier today...
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
some pics that we took on the 31 aug...  our grp of gals... our grp of gals... me, shwa juan, siling, fiona... janis and i...hao jie mei... shwa juan and i...blogged in slightly earlier today...cos in the nite, maybe wil be slightly more busy but if there is more, i will update de... woke up early today at 530 am...cos my daddy is bringing my relatives to fortunate restaurant for morning breakfast, and bingo, its dim sum...so we were out by 7 am...my siblings, my mummy and i have to take public transport, mrt...cos my family car cannot take in so many ppl wat... then after tat, we took mrt back home...and on the train...one of the most unbearable thing was that a little boy saw my brother and started tellin his mummy..."he is wearing something on his ear..." yes...my brother is wearing hearing aids...so? anw, i shd get used to it le...so i shdnt be bothered by wat ppl say...haiz... i told stef that i might be dependent on her manz...she says no prob...even she has a bf in the future...haha...silly gal...now, i dun feel for the previous one le, but i have not started on another one...still need time to think...perhaps lots of time... daddy is leaving for indonesia early in the morning tml...wil be back only in nov...haiz...that means when he leave the house, i m still in bed...or i m still sleeping... finally settled down a little...
Monday, September 05, 2005
finally settled down a little today..woke up at 945 tis morning...woke up by my grandma...cos she was talking loudly to my relatives...oh my...well, then no choice...i have to wake up to take my breakfast unwillingly...;)then stayed at home the whole day...though my siblings are having their sept holidays rite now...they are back to school for some activities today...and there is nth to watch on the tv...sms...dun go and disturb ppl mah...;) hopefully stef's paper went well today...haha...oh ya...then my blog added music le...its project superstar's derrick: hen xiang ni...haha...nice song leh...and must find a song that suit my blog rite... nth much to update de...holidays till now are just fine...but exams results are coming out soon, in two weeks time ba...by that time, the nervousness wil come de...aiya, but all these cannot escape de... crowded environment...
Sunday, September 04, 2005
had my breakfast only at 11am this morning...nearly got gastric...haha...but luckily i was occupied by the encore of the superstar grand finals...then went off in the afternoon to give tuition...then receive my pay le...haha...then after that went for dinner at thomson road...with the relatives that came from china...they are here till saturday... then came back to settle all the minor things...aiya...wil blog in more when i m free...now quite busy... another busy day...
Saturday, September 03, 2005
was a busy day today...woke up ard 9 plus tis morning...then took my breakfast, though limited variety of food that i can intake due to my braces...then after that bathe le, getting ready to get out...and we were off to holland ave...to take our lunch at crystal jade...haha...and after that, with the dessert from coffee bean...yummy...haha... then came home first with daddy buying johnson roast duck for dinner...cool...then we were rushing off to the airport to pick up the relatives that arrived from china...they are staying over at my godma's place tis weekend...next week, its my turn to give my room for a few days...haiz...i wil miss my bed...haha...anw, after that, we went east coast food village...ate food lyk, beef noodles, chicken wings, bbq seafood...haha..though i know some i cannot bite la...;) now, at home le, staring at my computer screen, entering tonite's blog...oh ya...yups, i placed some music into my blog le...haha...finally... spoke lots to stef yest...cos too many things happening at one time, i know i will fall de...it is just a matter of time, and who is there to hold me up...and confidently, i know at least one wil be there and its her...no words can describe the feeling that i can spell out...even we have bf in the future, we know when we need each other, we wil be first one to appear, the first one to call, the first one to know...relationships, perhaps we two shdnt even talk about it, becoz wat kind of situation are we in, do we exactly know...?
a choice or an ans?
Friday, September 02, 2005
went to the dentist today...and guess what!!! i cannot remove my braces yet!! and plus i have to endure the pain...she rebond the brackets...(the metal thingy.. altogether 7 brackets leh...and now it is damn painful lor...cannot take hard food somemore...poor me...then plus my leg injury...daddy arrived singapore yesterday...bringing back chocolate favoured kueh lapis... i m gonna to suffer a big headache...my family problems are getting big...i can't help...felt so useless...but adult affairs...we children are not allowed to interfere... finally stef's fever went back to normal temp...as usual, she calls me to talk...anything under the sun...and she confides into me, her problems plus mine...she has her problems to face, i have mine...but we both have the time factor to challenge with... haiz...wasted...
Thursday, September 01, 2005
i m blogging in red today...there is a significance behind it...all becoz of kelly!!! i love her to bits even though she lost to kelvin in tonite's round...i m definitely proud of her...haha...and how can i forget, derrick n junyang!! they are jus so funny tonite...i dunno how kelvin is gonna to bring the ruputation of s'pore up to other countries...till now i still believe that even the votes tonite, might be sympathy votes...becoz in 5 rounds, kelly won 4 rounds in the judges' eyes...but i do admit, kelly is much stable and confident then kelvin tonite in the indoor stadium...my wound on my leg is getting better but not too good also...i have been limping ard when i walked in the hse...jus lyk the other time when i injure my knee...just hate it...hmph...and i m gg for my dental appt tml...pls...allow me to take off my braces tml..!!! i hv been waiting long...;) and it seems that i have settling ppl's relationship problems...but i haven been putting a thought for my own...or putting it in this way, not that i didn't, is becoz i can't find the best way to...and time is my very precious factor...i can't rush neither i can slow it down...do i have a choice? i dun...so wat i can do is wait...some of my frens struggle with an ans, some struggle with an argument, and some struggle with time, but how many of them are actually strugglin with their own heart, their feelings? |
Goodbye.
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