Let me hear you call my name.
Jacinta.July 1988 just the way you are. simplistic yet loving. More than words.
I know you love me, too.
*year-end trip with sweets!*graduation trip? *sleepovers! *wedding planner classes! *early childhood classes? *longchamp/kate spate bag *watch *a pair of new sunglasses You were here too?
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nice but tired...
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
it was fun today...meeting up those old frens of my sec sch...miss them lots manz...haha...photos wil be coming up these few days time...then so careless of me today, i fell and injure myself...now my right leg is in pain...with a wound...sobz...very painful leh...then met many of my teachers...lyk mrs sudave, she is pregnant with her third child and its a baby gal...!! then mr elango, mr gopal, mdm lock, mrs doo...and many more...and most importantly, my previous form teacher, mr lim...actually we practically has no chance to talk to them cos they were rushing for the teachers day lunch...so mr lim promised that all of us will meet again before he leaves jwss for another sch by this year...so we will meet up this year...another gathering...haha...then we went jp to eat and chat, we just hv so much to chat...haha...then take photos...;) some of them din change, stil the same old them, but some, ya..become more mature, prettier, all the good characteristics that one could think of...haha.. lots of fun with 30 over of us going back today...definitely memorable...haha...wil blog in more when the photos are in... -updated at 1122 pm- read sino's blog jus now...at least he is taking up an option to ask christine one last time...promise me, if she is not keen on it, you shd wake up with yr eyes wide open and think for yrself...i din meant to use such harsh words yesterday nite, but it is not easy waking up from a dream that has been so long...i know...becoz i hv been thru in smiliar situations...it was terrible for me, but i know if i cannot overcome it, jus lyk i say, would u wan to wait till she sends u her wedding invitation before u would really wake up...? all the best for the ans u are expecting... then that buddy of mine, stef sends a email out of a blue moon...bout the diff btw fren and best fren...very true...i can be sure i m not jus yr fren...and becoz of that, it reminds me of a poem that my primary school fren, lee huiling, gave to me: Written with a pen, Sealed with a kiss, If you are my friend, Please answer me this. Are we friends? Or are we not? You once told me, But I forgot. So tell me now, And tell me true, So I can say, "I'm here for you!" Of all the friends, I've ever met, You're the one I won't forget. And If I die, before you do, I'll go to heaven and wait for you. If you are not there on Judgement Day, I'll know you went the other way. I'll give the angels back their wings, And risk the loss of everything. Just to prove, My Friendship Is True To Have A Friend Like You... she wrote it on a envelope, till now it is stil with me...it has been 6 years...it might not been very long...but this did have an impact on me...even till now...that's why i have earned for myself a best confident, and you all know who...treasure the ppl ard you, dun take them for granted...when happiness leaves you, dun be sad becoz there is chance that it will come back to you, on the other hand, when happiness arrives, dun be too happy becoz there is a chance that it will leave you too...all are too unpredictable... --tml is the grand finals for the project superstars...!!!-- how much does he mean...
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
been slacking at home the whole day at home, watching vcd...haha...but wil be out tml le...haha...tml is the 31 aug wat, the day before teachers day...though poly doesnt celebrate it, but the secondary school does ba...haha...facing some family problems last few weeks, finally has some peace le...but it is not getting anywhere...anytime i might jus go breakin down...its jus when only...perhaps i shd count myself lucky that i dun hv relationships problems ba...if not it add on the burden, but i dun deny that affairs of the heart are getting somehow in the way le... caught a flu bug when changing bedsheets today...but now ok le la...everytime also lyk that de...;) do gals tend to give in all and nv expect a return...? hmmz...a thought to think of... well, the i-weekly mag this week has two covers...one is kelvin and kelly, the other one is junyang and candyce...haha...but junyang de is nicer...look out for it when its out either tml or thurs...! :) tell me wat to do..
Monday, August 29, 2005
went out with stef today to jp popular to buy those stuffs needed for teachers day thingy on wed...and those stuffs cost a high price of 27 bucks...must be wondering wat stuffs did we buy rite...dun tell you...haha...;)then back to relationships, it seems like we cannot go on without mentioning the relationships for once...stef n i did talk about it...perhaps more on her rather than me...anyway what is there to talk about for me...? anyway for her case, perhaps i shdn't add too many things to it...jus some words..crushes are very normal things that can go away or chose to stay...if it has chose to go away when another comes, then u just hv to count yr luck...these kinds of things will happen naturally de... for me, i can't differentiate, which, is a habit or a liking...how am i supposed to know what is happening to me now...follow my heart...where is my heart bringing me to? but i feel an unknowning pain that is hurting me so much...the pain is piercing through, but i can't find the cause of it...why am i feeling all that...izzit becoz i gave up, or izzit becoz i started on something? but someone ever told me that time will tell everything... was a tiring day today...but tml another day slacking at hm le...but mummy wouldnt let me slp in for all...she wil wake me up...hmph... ..
Sunday, August 28, 2005
lovely...its a weekend again...well, its holidays after all...so it actually doesnt matter if it is or not...haha...and i m already on vcd spree...haha...well, next week is gonna to be busy...let's see... mon: out with stef and alif for teachers' day gift... tue: dun think gg anywhere, anyone has ideas? haha... wed: gg back to jws to visit teachers and definitely meet up with those frens of mine...miss them lots!! thurs: dad is arriving singapore in the evening, but guess i'll be at home watching my Project Superstars grand finals...and guess wat, stef has the tickets to go...!!! hmph... then on fri: i've got dental appt in the morning...hopefully its good news for me to remove my braces...that's for weekdays... then sat: my relatives from china are coming over...oh no...my room and my dear bed is sacrifice...sobz... sun: no plans manz...well, no matter how busy i am, time is stil there for me to blog...no worries...haha... on the other hand, i m letting go of something else...letting go of something i feel in the first place did not belong to me, and perhaps a mistake to begin with...well, time is always available there for me to erase my pain and start all over again...i m clear about what m i doing rite now...about feelings, wht it wil happen anot...that's in the future, cos one wil never know...haha...let nature take its course... exams are over...
Saturday, August 27, 2005
now its 1107am in the morning, jus woke up...haha..cos i was online till quite late yesterday...talking to some of my old frens...haha...anyway, its holidays le..!!! exams are over already...yesterday was my last paper...overall, i feel if there is no major hiccups then at least a pass shd be ok ba...later going out, send sister to school, she has cca...then mummy wans to get out of hse...haha...so its my time to get "Mr Fighting" vcd le...haha...then tuition tml...getting my pay too...haha... blog in more later...-- how...
Thursday, August 25, 2005
tml is my last paper...POM...principles of management...one module that needs lots of my brain power manz...cos all the memorising can make one go crazy...!! haha... and for accts today, again, i supposed i screwed up the last question once again...and it is on fixed assets...well, no use, its over le...pray hard that my POM is fine for tml and i m free...jus hope i can memorise in and do not forget any stuffs..cos there are lots...;) blog in later...oh no...
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
i think i have screwed up my last question for econs yest...wat's wrong with me..? and today while gg thru accts, the only prob i have was on fixed assets...and most probably it will be coming out for section C tml...!! 35 marks...that's alot...pray hard that my accts wil be fine...and definitely for my pom (principles of management) on fri...! bless me...one paper is done, the next is up...
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
jus finished stats paper yesterday..phew...finish it on the dot manz...hopefully pass can le la...econs is up for today at 3 pm again...how i dislike afternoon papers...but it also has an advantage...so no worries...jus updating a little, fill in more the next time...-updated at 1015pm- studying for accounts and pom which are respectively on thurs and fri...everything is going well i guess... all along i thought the feelings i have seem to be getting further, not until today, then i realised...perhaps after all, its still there but it is not getting any further...or perhaps i should try letting it go, becoz this is a never ending process until i decided to end it...i can go on and on but i might not get anything... back to studies, two more papers... i m feeling it...
Saturday, August 20, 2005
went to give tuition and went for kevin's birthday bash today...tired...then upon reaching home, here i m on stats again...this whole week i dun seem to be able to concentrate on other things other than my notes...and now, tonite, this very saturday nite, i m feeling extremely tired...i dunno wht izzit becoz of the exams or izzit becoz i was out half of the day...but i know having to face those past year papers jus tire me out, but nevertheless i know i must complete them becos my aim is to pass the exams so that i dun need to take supplementary and retake any modules...and i m feeling the exam stress, that's for sure...it was lucky that i need not use any miagraine medicine this time, cos i have not experienced any miagraine headaches yet...i know, wait till i experience it then it wil be too late, but i know how to tackle them...main priority is my exams...wait till next week is over, then i m free at least...;) tml praying my grandfather in the morning then have to wake up early le...then after that, last revision before exams on mon... perhaps i wun be blogging so often lyk everyday next week due to exams but i'll be back the week after next...as for online, next week, u might see less of me ard...anyway, ppl take care... now, back to my notes... yawnz...haha
Friday, August 19, 2005
went back to school today to revise the work...so fast....friday le...two more days to exams!! tml i have tuition job plus kevin's birthday party...he is turning one...well, i guess there is nite left to revise...then sunday need to go and pray grandfather in the morning, so afternoon and nite are left...time looks short rite...i know i m always complaining that time is not enough, but its true la...time is always insufficient to me de...haha...then 5566 launches their 3rd album today!!! but their first hit, not so nice leh...i shall see other songs and decide if i buy it...but i think i wil de la...haha...who ask me to be their fan...? perhaps the second version ba...haha... then mei mei wants to get kelly's single...haha...so many things...then stil hv mr fighting vcd...bust liaoz...haha... hopefully i can complete econs fully tonite...haha...then tml can focus more on stats...today is tired la...then wake up this morning with a slightly swollen right eye..but nevertheless, i put on my contacts...haha...but i remove them a few hours later le... ok la...i m getting back to my econs lecture notes le...;) ...
Thursday, August 18, 2005
revision is here and there le...almost there but not yet...haha...superstar this week is damn tensed manz...i know i shdnt be talking bout this when my exams are ard the corner...but...it is inevitable...haha...then its thurs le...actually i dun hv anything to blog in for tonite...oh ya...gg back to school to revise with frens tml...to revise...last weekday for the week le...so fast...i wished that there is more time manz...but sadly time dun wait... relax myself by putting on a face mask at home today...to relieve myself from the stress i am facing...haha...must be thinking...i m vain rite...but this is the girl's right to be vain...haha... hopefully i wil pass the exams nicely to go to the next semester.... blog in further when the results of the superstar are out... -updated at 1229am- i am disappointed...very in fact...for the reason that junyang is out...i have always believed that junyang is much much more better than weilian..then why is this happening...junyang is good...very good...if he is the one with the single, i wil buy...for sure...but now...no...i wun cast a sympathy vote to buy weilian's album...i know, we shdnt look down with ppl that has a disability, but the grand finals is not an easy task...this is even worse than the other time when derrick was out...on the other hand, congrats to kelly, she made it...though i was quite shocked about it...becoz i tot sin huey deserved it...but nevertheless, kelly, well done! as for junyang, continue your music path, if u come out with an album someday, be sure i wil buy it and no matter wat, to me u are a superstar already...that's all... haiz...
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
firstly, happy birthday junyang!!! he turned 24 le...! haha...next, my revision is going fine...i think my blog this whole week is gg to be about studies le...haha... then, just finished watching project superstars...haha...junyang is jus so cool...derrick too..!!! haha...his version of ' tong hua' is very nice... hopefully he is the one making it thru to the grand finals...and i think so too...!! sino approached to talk to me yest bout his prob...jus have some words to tell him: hey kor, i know you're very disappointed and definitely heart-broken bout tis...but you must learn that relationships these kind of things are things that we cannot control and they are always out of reach at the wrong time...as said, one should never place their 100% heart and soul into a relationship that is not stable yet...u should place them in bit by bit, slowly...these kind of things cannot rush de...the more you rush, the results wil be negative de...you should know it better than i do...and it is not that no one bother bout you, but the basic you can do is to take care of yrself and respect it before others wil ask and respect you too...becoz you are standing at where you are now...perhaps you can take a step back, you'll see things that are much more beautiful than what you have imagine it to be...your life wil never be jus black and white, cos you know that frens in your life, perhaps not your gf, wil add colours into it...you know it, its just that you don't want to accept the fact of tis...step out of tis circle that you are bounded in, you wil feel much lighter, dun let relationships be a major part that will affect most of your life...relationships used to play a very big part in my life becoz i feel that one is able to live due to the presence of love...but not now, becoz i have learnt that they wil come when it is supposed to...and time wil tell you if he/she is the right one...perhaps you might feel that i m jus crapping all throughout, but seriously i hope you wil think about it, but the choice is still yours eventually, no one can affect you, not even your best confident...just to add on, the road is yours, whether to walk thorugh it with great deals of freedom or a heavy burden of pain, the choice is yours...... ok la...i m going to rest early tonite...most likely not going online...haha...cos notes stil have a fair bit to complete...;) second day only and yet...
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
its only the second day of the study week...and now i m starting to get the stress le...today did revision for stats and econs but stil on it though...it wil be a never-ending process till i finish my exams...now then i notice, stats got quite a fair bit though...haha...need a hard time for memorising...for econs supposed going fine...went to gym this afternoon, need to relieve my stress a little...half an hour only la...tml is the third day le...so fast mid of the week already...time is passing too fast that its hard to catch up for my studies... need to pick my brother up frm school tml cos mummy is not free...put on my contacts lor...cos i hv not been wearing them these few days, i scare later i cannot get used to them again then i wil start to tear...haha... ok...back onto my notes...;) its the start of the study week..
Monday, August 15, 2005
its the monday of the study week...can say i have completed all my notes...jus need to practice the past year papers, read thru tutorials and lecture notes, which i m doing so now...while typing tonite's entry...haha...multi-tasking...haha...woke up at 930 tis morning...drag myself out of bed to study...stay at home practically at home today to study...cos my house area is quiet enough...haha...been drinking lots of water to make sure that i m in the best of health and not to fall sick jus before the exams... perhaps it is becoz of the exams preparations, i practically dun have time to laze around to think about other things...or perhaps i m finding it a little tired to continue thinking when most likely i know what is the outcome already...there are too many perhaps yet too little comfirms...it's really tired...sometimes i see my friends struggling just to save a relationship of theirs, i just wonder why...i know when its time and yet it is not let off, eventually it wil stil slip thru your fingers and move past...and actually how many people can do so? well, in exactly one week's time, i wil be taking my first paper for this semestral exam...doing an exam countdown...? P.S. happy birthday tc...again...17 liao...haha...old le... ...
Sunday, August 14, 2005
went to tutor my student tis morning...haha...she is coping well...eyes have been feeling very uncomfortable since the weekend starts...so even today i went out, i didn't bother putting on my contacts...cos i m worried that they might cause more problems... pom notes are going to be done soon...the A4 papers are gonna to stack up...haha...not so bad la...jus a little thick...;) then after that, can do memorising le...i have one whole week nxt week to settle it..and of cos for my other modules... jus spoken to mummy...she was asking me not to stress myself for the coming exams...but knowing me, a little stress is inevitable de...also suddenly she tell me saying that if i hv a bf, i must tell her...haha...but too bad, i m single now... ;) nth big happen today...so no interesting events to report...haha... many things to..
Saturday, August 13, 2005
.jpg) from the top?1.jpg) its us from another angle...2.jpg) best shot out of all, we feel ;)2.jpg) trying to act innocent, but i think...fail?2.jpg) vertical pose...hey above are some of the photos taken yesterday when i meet up with stef and she came over to my hse for a while...haha... unknowingly, i have already known stef for 5 years including this year...we practically can talk anything that one could think of, from the very basic of school work, to family, to appearance, to friendships, and lastly, to relationships...its actually everything...she really understands me in and out...never fails to read my mind even before i say it out...jus wanna to tell her... "hey stef, thanks for being a great friend from the start when i met u in our cca...and now that u are my best buddy, i have really enjoyed walking this fruitful journey with you...it is a path that i did not regret taking on...i couldn't remember exactly, what's the date that we called this friendship on, but i have kept all the memories that we shared at the bottom of my heart...and i hope to keep more into it...you never fails to accompany me when i was down, always my adviser, and really, we are not linked by blood ties, but i have really feel the sistership that u are really becoming someone that will play a part in my life...i will share your tears, burdens, joy and sorrows...and promised that you will too rite? and definitely, we will stay together as best buddies till the day we married, have kids, grow old, and finally the day we leave the world...? i know i might be thinking far, but i just want you to know, you are THAT important...and becoz of you, you have made me realise the warmth and love that a friend could give, a lending hand that i can always reach out for, and definitely many more...u are always the first one i think of whenever i have problems, and you are the one that i am not afraid to cry out loud in front of...trust me, u are always missed by me, becoz i know you are too..." my feelings...perhaps not so confused up but not too confirmed too...these kinds of stuffs are always said to be waited...if waiting is together with hope, then its a pleasure, if waiting is together with pain, then its a torture... finally stef has a blog le..rush her so long le then place on...haha...slow la... i m tired today..dun think wil be online tonite le...perhaps tml ba...;) ok..off on my books le... ;) last day...
Friday, August 12, 2005
so fast...its the last day of the first semester...excluding the exams of cos...vividly still rmb the first day i enter nyp for the orientation...went with alif and janis...cos we only know each other...haha...and now...known ppl from different courses...different schools...just within a short period of three months...just how fast things changes...nvm the first day...now...the exams...always a big issue to me...preparing notes, studying past year papers...its lyk a normal routine to be done every half a year...many things has changed le...jus lyk my appearance, perhaps the way i study, the way i look at ppl, the way i speak...but for one thing i know, the way of how i treat my frens stil remains... met up with stef for lunch today...haha...she looks much better after she rebonds her hair...and we look more alike...!!! haha... got a feeling i m gonna to fall sick soon, it is always happening before exams...dunno why also... ok la...shall not blog in further le...cos need to go prepare notes again...;) what a day...
Thursday, August 11, 2005
notice that i blog in slightly earlier today...haha...went to school in the afternoon cos there is only a class of two hours...ting, shan, lis and alvin skipped it...while alex and i attended...nth much, only revision plus the feedback for our ica 2...got a B grade...not too bad i supposed...so met up with nurul to go school today...then while going home on the same train as alex, nurul and cat...talked lots of stuffs...nurul lost her balance when the train moves...i think alex is gonna to blog in more further on this on his blog...haha...then after alex alighted...cat was explaining to nurul bout her matter...hey gal, i know i have encouraged u to continue waiting if he's worth it...but now, even for myself, everything seems to be so normal, i know yrs is much longer than mine...but when it's time to let go, jus let go of it slowly, dun let him lead u on...u wil suffer...i know, no matter how we tell u, it's stil your choice...and it all depends on u...becoz u treasure the friendship that the both of u hv...but u muz always rmb if he dun even care bout what u are doing, then there's no point to continue the friendship, u'll be hurting yourself even more...as a friend, i dun wish to see u get hurt becoz of this...as for me, i know it all depends on me...but crushes are jus something that u will hv to experience in yr life de...and some can stay for long, some can stay short...some may turn into relationships, but some, no matter how u wait, there is no return of it...i dunno how long mine can stay for now, but i m not hoping...cos i know where i stand...but always rmb, if u need help, we are always there for u...;) was having my family talk during dinner...and was talking bout my bro going for a blood test yest for some tests...haha...he was scared of it...asking why a needle must be used to get blood for tests...haha...but he's all right now... unknowingly, rong ci aka alan has became my er-ge...haha...happen to found out when i met him before entering class today...haha... another 10 days to exams...hopefully i'll be prepared for it...dun let me get sick...i always tend to fall sick before exams...must take care of myself...;) btw, i m meeting stef darls for lunch tml...well, miss her so much...!! finally meeting again le...we haven meet ard one month le ba...? -updated at 12.19am- i m happy that kelly is in le...but i was so so sad when derrick is announced to be out...it was not easy for him to get back from the rivial round...and now, he is out again...and first time see him cry, cos he can always hold his tears...and his speech jus now was very touching...no matter what, i wil support derrick de...hope to see him again in the next project superstar... another day gone...
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
sch was till 2 today, then go for lunch...then they planned to go alex's house to watch vcd, but i didn't wan to go, or phrase it in a better way, i was not in the mood to go...exams coming le, no matter wat...i wun focus on the show de...so muz well dun go...i wil go out more often when the holidays arrive...well, talking bout going out, who ask my parents to be so strict on me? who tell me to be the eldest child in the family? if i do not set an example, who wil be blamed by her sibilings? sometimes it is not that i dun wan to go...is becoz i can't...mummy has been getting lenient these few years, much even now when i m in poly le...wat else can i expect from her? aside the topics...not feeling too well, not in the sense of physically, but mentally and emotionally...and its something that i dunno how to explain, or shd say, i dun even know wat is it...well, with exams coming...can't be bothered too... tml has only 2 hours of sch...revision week wat...then very fast de...nxt week study week le...starting on econs and stats le...cos pom got lots of things to memorise..so no choice...haha...though exam is near, i m stil watching my all-time favourite, project superstar, but i dun vote...and adding on, would be Shooting Stars... off to prepare notes for econs...wat was i doin?
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
stayed at home the whole day today...can't seem to focus and study...whenever i do so, my head hurts so much, but need not take my medication yet, so its not too bad...but nevertheless, i m going on with the studies that's it...dunno wat's the problem with me today, first is my headache, then nxt is my gastric, i haven been having it for a long time already...but it was ok after a while...but it doesn't matter anyway...jee chee and chiew ling came over to play with my brother...they have been coming recently...well, perhaps its a good thing cos someone is there to accompany my bro...and today, i somehow try to explain to my granny that she smokes too much, but she feels that my mummy and i are forbiding her to smoke...haiz...wat m i supposed to do..?? and i tend to sneeze non-stop when her cigarette smoke reached me...well, since i can't convince her to smoke less, i wil have to let her go on, before she complains that i m an unfilial grandchild... and the most shocking thing that i know was....stef my darls when to rebond her hair!! haha...well, i told her long ago that she needed that, but she wouldn't believe me, so now, she is forced by her mom to go for it...i can imagine how funny is she now...haha...anyways, i will be meeting her soon...till then, see ya gal...haha.... was on the phone with stef jus now, updating each other bout so many things...haha...even though we chat online almost everyday...she talked bout hers, i talk bout mine...she asked me to place some confidence in myself, but she knows my character, i wouldn't have, or in fact, even if i do, things are getting so normal that it seems lyk a normal thing in my life now...or perhaps it is jus a dream that is so near yet so far...for her, as usual, guys surrounding her...haha...but she is not interested...but i believe she wil find one that suits her de...haha... well, class starts at 10 tml all the way till 2...have to get up by 730...which is early manz...haha...i supposed there is no need to stay in school further le...perhaps coming home to study wil be good...haha...feeling slightly tired tonite...perhaps i will slp earlier than usual... revision, here it starts...
Monday, August 08, 2005
went to school extra early today, for internet web ica...haha...hopefully i pass the module so i dun need to retake the module again...haha...then guess wat, first person i saw other than meeting all my frens at the station was alif...dunno why, i have been meeting him many times recently and its consective de ok...and i suppose if my eyes didn't play a trick on me, i saw shawn as well...haha...aside all that...well, arriving in the lab was the start of the test, cat was like asking if i know my stuff cos we r supposed to do in grp first, then after that individual...haha...that was stressful but it was all over...then revision begins for all subjects...macroeconomics, stats, and accts... didn't expect myself to meet him today at anywhere...but so happen to when i m at the printing shop...haha...and guess wat, nurul was very very happy...haha...hey gal, u have been telling me that u didn't wan to get into in le, but i can tell u, its not whether u wan anot, it is wht yr heart allows u to...dun give up becoz ppl start confronting u, or some other frens are discouraging u...follow your heart and u'll not be wrong...trust me...if u feel that he's worth then continue to wait, he'll know it someday...and i supposed he is...all rites? was not feeling too good this whole day, perhaps the matter is really affecting, which i dun feel so...and i believe i wouldn't allow it too...jus that it is stil a little awkward meeting him in school...haha... and guess wat is the worst thing that happened? alex wanted me to put his name down for credits in helping me to choose this blogskin...so in the end, ppl u can see...noted under the frens list, u'll see a special thanks...that's him...haha...and i didn't write so long, so ur shd know who completed the sentence....haha...anw, really tks to alex ya...;) revision is getting just fine...and i supposed it wil be till the end of exams...definitely with my frens ard, shd be all rite....haha... happen to talk to sino yesterday, my kor...hmmz...he is again single and available...talk lots of things...but most impt, why he decided to give up on relationships...i finally understand why..it is not that he can't commit, he is afraid to, cos even i myself is worry that whenever feelings are built in, it's hard to remove and thus getting a x2 disappointment plus hurt...i was afraid to commit as well, that's y i have to struggle for two years in deciding wht m i stil someone that is worth of, or shd i jus be alone, not to get into relations or even crushes...cos it seems to get overboard in sch le...it is supposed to be a matter between two...but its all rites for me, cos my frens are lyk this...i m jus afraid that things are gonna to be messed up...but no matter how worried i m, some things jus can't be done...... busy day...
Sunday, August 07, 2005
today is such a busy day manz...firstly went to tutor my cousin...not too bad...i m coping well with it...haha...(of cos, i m earning money for myself...) after that, went clementi for lunch, hmmz then stop by Giordano to get t-shirts...haha...i got three for myself but were paid by mummy...haha..i was at the train station when alex msg me and tell me that the tagboard is not working again...was worried lor...but i was outside...couldn't do anything...but then after that, he msg me again telling me that it was working already...phew...that was a scare... after that, went to expo, cos mummy wants to view the book fair...then in the end before even we get into the hall for bookfair, mummy went striaght into the hall with the john little warehouse sales...haha...then she started looking around, shopping, and in the end, when the queue is up, the queue was long...real long...haha...so we spent time waiting...but i got myself, a handbag, some facial products...but i can't find shoes that i can wear to sch...so in the end, i dropped the idea of finding one...haha..impatient me rite...usually i m not lyk tis de...but it was very crowded la...so no point...and the worst thing is that mummy doesn't wan to drive to expo, so we have to take train and bus...haha...and jus reached home, my legs are tired....haha... then tml hv internet test on frontpage...i did practice during lessons but now...see how la...as long as i dun hv to retake tis module can le...pray hard that i pass...and tml's lesson starts from 9 all the way to 8, with two hours break from 4 to 6...maybe i will do revision ba...cos exams are jus around the corner... anyway, jus reached home only, so have to rush the stats tutorial a little...so catch up tml...;) two more weeks...
Saturday, August 06, 2005
its seems like i am counting down the days for exams manz...usually i wil be very nervous for exams, but when it comes to poly de...i dun feel so bad...but i wil still feel the tense...its a saturday, tuition push off to tml...has been in house preparing notes for exams, finishing up the last tutorials for the modules... i m not thinking bout it, its jus that nurul asked me not to hope too high, so i told her, its not that i m not hoping, and i will not be hoping too high cos i m afraid of double disappointment...if it is meant to be, it wil happen...as for alif's friend, take a step at a time...i know crushes are jus things that happen in life, might be long, might be short...its something that oneself cannot predict wht it will stay...let fate decide... talking to janis online...so many things to talk about...haha... finally rest....
Friday, August 05, 2005
finally, all projects are done...only worry would be the exams...doing up preparations for it in any ways...feeling so tired...haha...lacking of sleep...then wat happen today....hmmz...let's see... firstly, went to school for accts...and sis was late...she overslept...haha...so i went on to meet shan first cos ting is not coming to school today...as well as alvin... finishing the tutorial, alex, me, lis and shan went j8 to shop around, cos shan actually wanted to eat pastamania...but muz wait till 2 pm for the student price...so in the end, we took some finger food at mac, but guess wat, she was already full after sharing a 9 pcs nuggets with me!!! haha...so in the end, we jus packeted some other food to bring to school and eat...in the tutorial room...haha..gg j8 also gave alex a chance to apply for part time jobs...i dun need it, if i wan, my uncle has already helped me to, jus waiting for my holidays to arrive...haha... so we went back to school and watch 'Charile and the Chocolate Factory'...the whole storyline was ok...only a little boring...lucky didn;t spent money to get tickets...haha...alex brought the disc to school...then ting call and said she will not be gg for the p team meeting at 5 later on, while alvin joined us shortly after we started watching the show.... p team meeting was for us to do review or something....asking us to provide a feedback for the graduation last friday...so we jus speak lor... well, trying my best to change my blogskin again...so jus wait and see.... finally...
Thursday, August 04, 2005
finally the matter is resolved i feel...oral comm presentation finally done...all the projects are done...now can focus on exams preparation...haha...me gonna to tutor my cousin starting from saturday le...primary 3 maths....part-time job...trying out...haha...hopefully it worked out...haha... my mood has been much light-hearted these few days...maybe is becoz of the things that has happened ba... life still goes on as normal...jus that jazreel is getting gastric at the wrong time...but she shd be ok de... two more weeks to exam...stressed out...nevertheless, preparations are in the way le...so no harm... no comments...
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
can someone jus tell me wat to do...? why are things turning tis way...? I have asked myself, was i the one who cause things to be lyk this? or was it some other reasons....? I really dun get it...must we have internal conflicts till we see each other as someone we dun wish to talk to? it is tiring...very tiring in fact...have elis kept things to herself? is so okay? cos the way she reacts these days are not the elis i know anymore, starting to turn cold on the outside...then it seems lyk ppl are not reacting as fast as before, or were they just ignoring me...? or maybe my words have offended ppl without knowing, cos i m always straightforward with my comments...but i mean no offence... my mood is actually quite okay these few days, but they got dragged down by this already...it is not getting me anywhere...or shd say, i dunno where i shd walk to...even i have the mood for a shopping spree, it would be turned off by tis already... no one will understand one...anyway i m used to living in my own world...if this is meant to be so, then shall it be...i shdn't be bothered by it and shdn't care about it even...cos it wouldn't get us anywhere... i might sound a little harsh in tonite's entry...but i hv no where to place all these, becoz i know i cant get answers...so no pt finding someone to talk about...it will only irritate ppl...that's it...no pt enterin any other happy stuffs in for tonite's entry... -off and away- ...
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
actually nothing much to blog in today...except meeting alif in the lab, its so pai seh lor...didn't expect to see him...then the most shocking news is that he says that someone lyk me lor...from his grp of frens...surprising...then finally completed the oral project props...haha...then nurul was not able to see her zen...poor her...hopefully she wil be able to see him tml...all the best ya... ok la...off to my pom le...tml lecture gg thru... wel..
Monday, August 01, 2005
well, its a boring monday again...well, there is really nth to blog about except the 'zen' and 'junior' haha...shall not elaborate further...to mention one funny stuff, alex tried doing the 'wuha' dance that wei choong did during the superstar and was spotted by the lecturer...haha...always so hyperactive... one good news is that we are almost done with oral comm...need rehearsals and that's it... sis is quite down today...dunno wat's wrong with her...perhaps she is jus tired...i supposed... |
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