Let me hear you call my name.
Jacinta.July 1988 just the way you are. simplistic yet loving. More than words.
I know you love me, too.
*year-end trip with sweets!*graduation trip? *sleepovers! *wedding planner classes! *early childhood classes? *longchamp/kate spate bag *watch *a pair of new sunglasses You were here too?
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wat m i supposed to....?
Sunday, July 31, 2005
sunday...hmmz...nv planned to go out and didn't to as well...was on my tutorials, watching tv, etc...feeling bored...another school week tml...listening to music using the passive speakers connected to my mp3 player...three more weeks...1st semesteral exam... busy hanging on frenster...reading profiles, adding new frens accts...found derrick's acct...i think it is really his ba...so jus add and see...and guess wat...he added me le...haha... nv really have a good nite slp yesterday...for someone lyk me, who takes a longer time to analyse situations...perhaps all these really take time...but confidently, i can say i have put down a huge barrier that is obstructing me to go further...i can definitely move on even futher but its the minor parts that will make up this journey that would stop me along the way...some of the minor parts might be a torture sometimes, but its up to me to decide if i m gg to take up the challenge...as for feelings, more or less is settled...but stef says that his looks are so-so only...now i know, stef do care bout looks huh...but aside this matter, inner character is something that all shd be looking for...though first impression counts on looks... out of here... another day passed...
Saturday, July 30, 2005
.jpg) the crazy kids...haha...(01).jpg) chiew ling, me and jee chee...its a saturday today, sis ask me out, to go bugis but i didn't wan to...partially mummy wouldn't allow as exams are one month's time...and my tutorials are not done yet, cos mon is my turn to present for econs tutorial...stressed up...then when i didn't go...sis msg to tell me something that is so disappointing manz...partial regretted not going...haiz... then took photos with jee chee and chiew ling cos they came over yesterday...shan muz be very mad now...above are the photos that they take...some quite crazy la...haha... ok...off to complete work le... ultra tired...
Friday, July 29, 2005
today is the graduation ceremony for the school of business management of NYP...from morining till evening...indeed tired...and my old injury of my knee is not looking too gd ya...very busy with general ushering and portrait gallery...i then noticed that when i do usher, indeed i walk a little too fast...must slow down...muz take as lesson learnt...haha... indeed we did hv lots of fun, perhaps knowing ppl in the p team better, we still have another 2 and a half of good long years with it manz... then perhaps i found out something that perhaps i shouldn't at all, then i wouldn't feel too bad...but, love, this kind of thing always is very miserable one...there is no single chance that one wouldn't...unless they are in a happy realtionships...but ppl will always say look on the positive side...well, will i ever get this day? pray hard... but love to me is lyk a butterfly, if i grab too hard, it will die, but if i hold it without strength, it will slip off from my hand and fly away...then wat is the most appropriate strength...? oh ya...not forgetting...the project superstar last nite...shocking results...wei cong is OUT!!! and jason is IN!!! dear me...catherine mus be crying lots yest nite...as for derrick and kelly, my best two favs...they r in... haiz...
Thursday, July 28, 2005
its not a good day today...jus reached home at 1045...latest even since i started my poly school life...told mummy that i wil need to reach yck by 7 tml for make up and hair but dunno why she jus dun understand...then started arguing in the car when she picked me from bukit gombak...saying that my sch is disorganised, why muz they only settle the graduation thingy tonite...aiya...i cant be bothered to continue to argue with her, so i went silent...then she say that even since i went nyp, my attitude changed le...i mean, who doesn't...? ppl muz grow de wat...its not that we will be forever 3 years old...dear me lor...dunno wat logic i use then she will understand that poly life is diff from sec school life le...can someone jus offer some suggestions? i m at my wits end already... another thing...my clique has joined p team together but it seems like...somehow...lack of communication izzit? or wat...our clique can hardly have the time to sit down and talk le..izzit becoz our distance moved apart le or becoz we jus dun wish to...? friendship in our clique seems to get more and more complicated already...it can no longer jus be pure friendship...it wil be hard..if it is all gals, maybe...but becoz there is a mixed...of guys and gals...anyway i really dunno wat the outcome wil be...but i m really hoping that no matter wat, our distance wun drift too far apart...that is my feeling, perhaps others wouldn't feel it or perhaps i m too sensitive...i dunno...but tis kind of situation is really something that i dun wish to see... crushes are getting more a common topic nowadays...btw friends...its normal...but will there ever be a case of falling for the same person? or someone else name is jus a smokescreen of another...? well, its within one person...perhaps u might find that i m crapping too much already...but it is not impossible... out of here... shd it or shd it not....
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
there was nth to blog yest about, so decided to blog in more info tonite...finally done with the portrait gallery broad...haha...and guess wat, i m shifted into the afternoon shift...well, perhaps its not a bad thing after all.... and something so funny happen today...yr go figure out ya...does burnt=blueblack...? haha...well, i cannot continue..if not, ppl wil kill me tml...haha talk quite a lot today...so fast, 3 months gone already...ppl get into crushes...get out of it, then friendship conflicts...so on...glad all these unhappy things are over...as said by my frens, i mus move on even if things are not gonna to turn out fine...life stil hv to go on as it is... well, its tiring if u wan to put away but u cant...but i muz make sure i can put it away, if not, it will cast a shadow into my life...i wanna start afresh... i dunno if my feelings are sure and for now...i dun think i wanna to confirm it...everything is too early...sis always say...slowly...rite...haha...and i will. finally done...
Monday, July 25, 2005
cool...finally done with econs...meeting up with my oral grp to complete last ica for oral...then collected p team's uniform today...terrible manz...but its uniform..so muz accept it as wat it is lor...no choice... econs was very demanding today...dun wish to talk bout it... then p team need the portrait gallery ppl to help...so went to help a while...but i dun think tml i can...mummy will scream de... ok...that's bout it le.. so many things happened....
Sunday, July 24, 2005
its a sunday...supposed to be happy...but too many things happened...went off early for shopping today...first, we went toa payoh to buy sis a new hp...its nokia 6670...follow that, dad went to get jewelleries for one of his colleague...maybe gift ba, then we went marina for steamboat...cool huh...finally, went IMM to get my MP3...its the sony latest model, HW-HD5... but unhappy things happen too, like the ink from my pen, stained my topic C stats notes...lucky stil can study but wil need to get new one tml to recopy my notes in...haiz... and another...dun wish to mention about it...but i supposed we are not afffected by that rite? we will stil be friends de... still studying for tml's stats ica...wil turn in soon, and need to be in school early tml...for econs...tml still have presentation... hey...
Saturday, July 23, 2005
hey...its me back here...tis morning was the sbm professional team batch II gradaution ceremony...finally a member officially le...haha...grp photo was taken too...haha...then after that, alex, lis, alvin and me, went G2000 cos alex wanted to get a set of blazer and pants...so he got that, plus a shirt....thereafter, they came ove rto my hse, with the exception of alvin, he wanted to go home...haha...everyone is tired la...then mon, at 5pm we have fitting for our uniform...gonna to be busy le... then econs project...still progressing well, no worries...sure can finish de... and today, sis always say she is a l***t b**b...haha...(u know wat i mean...) it is impossible de la...dun even need to use a single brain cell to think about it...its yours, it wil be yours...not yours, no matter how u get it, it wun be yours eventually.... going shopping tml...getting my mp3...hey...nice ya...cool... relieve le..
Thursday, July 21, 2005
finally...done with the oral and pom presentation....phew....but econs is on its way...haha...tml will be a busy day...8am to 5pm...dear me...gonna to be tiring manz...then not enough slp yesterday too... met up with zhi ping today to discuss some stuffs....stil the same skinny her...haha...and still so loving with lesile ya...haha...enough of that, if not she might kill me le...lol... trying my very best to put my past memories away to start afresh...though i admit, i m still affected by any words that matters bout him....but 17 already, a new year ahead...shouldn't let this matter drag me further..chaining me to a spot, not allowing me to move and search for my world...cos in the first place, it's not supposed to be lyk this... its a complicated mind that i will never be able to understand...not even my frens around... YEAH...!!! DERRICK AND KELLY ARE IN FOR THE SEMI FINALS!!! COOL....!!! WAY TO GO...!! back again...
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
hey i m back again..didn't blog for two days...sorry cos projects are jus really too much to take le...so have to settle it le then blog lor...tis week other than the presentations tml, fri 8 to 5 is a total full day for the six of us...p team has rehearsal for the graduation on the 29 jul...so no classes...then sat, 830 to 11...its our p team batch 2 graduation...from the training....busy huh...? then after that muz finish off econs...cos we haven touch it yet and we are supposed to present on monday....nice huh...haha... jus finish watching the project superstars....derrick go...!!! though leon is from my school...but i lyk derrick more....and only 1 can get in leh...of cos i wanna my fav to get it... tml wil be the presentation for oral and pom....scary man...jus so scary...esp for oral...doing intro tml...hopefully it all goes well....haha.... kk...need to prepare my speech tml le...so check it out tml... phew....
Sunday, July 17, 2005
phew...finally done with oral (waiting for my members' side and we are done) and pom, done with my part le, alvin and alex gonna to do the minor stuffs and touch up....haha...but econs and the last ica for oral muz start le...no time to lose le... tis weekend has been a busy one...nearly no time to relax even...was working on my stuffs on saturday plus sunday which is today... muz get used to it...stef tell me de...then one month's time, exams!!! so fast...then other than projects, there are rehearsals and dental appts...oh man...busy me... ok...check in later tml... so stressed!!!
Saturday, July 16, 2005
its so stressing today manz...jus finished up my tutorials needed for monday and i m now on my project le...i m a busy gal tis weekend...pray hard that i will be able to complete all the projects as planned of wat i think...if not...dead le...cos nxt week will be packed schedule...when rehearsals are up, so on so forth...after thurs, it will be very relaxing le...but econs wil be on the following mon...so muz do work still...argh....!!! well, need to get up early to prepare sister's breakfast cos she has outing...pancakes....yum....haha...ok...till then... its friday again...
Friday, July 15, 2005
its friday again...and datelines of projects are reaching...nearer and nearer... so scary...i need to settle pom and oral this weekend so i m doing my tutorials now...jus finished econs so moving now to stats...its the mid of july already...so fast...another five months it will be year 2006 le...or am i thinking too much? well, nothing wrong i think...and one month more, exams!!! argh.... and upcoming will be graduation thingy...haha...gonna to get more busy even...cool... relationships...sometimes i do envy ppl who are attached...but sometimes they just dunno how to treasure the one who is beside...but definitely ppl who knows will have a nice and fulfiling relationship...well, sometimes becoz of environmental factors, u will ask yrself.."why r others attached and i m stil single?" but becoz we r single, we get the unlimited freedom that sometimes relationships can't give...unknowingly, being single for a year and half, i start to look at things in a clearer manner...maybe becoz lessons learnt in the past that made me think and act in tis way when situations happen... well, here i m crapping again...dunno wat i m talking too...hopefully i make some sense....till then... time flies...
Thursday, July 14, 2005
i m so tired...later watching the project superstars results later...another interesting round later...tis weekend gonna to slog it thru due to three projects on hand...wonder how m i gonna to make it thru manz... dun feel lyk blogging le...blog in tml...nth to write le... why do i have such feelings?
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
its the mid week le...and projects are not finished yet...so frustrating...perhaps i think too much or wat...but i feel that i m not that close to lis, shan and ting yet...close definition is that things are to be revealed in a grp...though i know privacy is needed always no matter how close friends are...becoz i m used to the friendship that stef n i has...but it take 4 years to have these kind of close close friendship...perhaps we r not close enough due to the time given, its only a few months...wat can i expect rite...expectations to high le..but...haiz...enough of this le...ppl reading would find it boring too... oral comm project has been assigned to each member le...econs..tml...pom, working on it... very tired tis week even though its only wednesday... signing off.... ...
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
its a tuesday...counting days...jus so tired of it...stupid notebook, the left side near the touch pad gets so hot after a while...so need to go for maintainance and see how...tml see bringing notebook for project usage, cos later the lab ppl might be using la...and anw tml are all lectures...but the notebook is heavy leh... school is getting back as per normal...but projects datelines are getting nearer and nearer day by day...so time is getting more and more precious... enough...tired to blog le... tired...
Monday, July 11, 2005
 its another gift from my clique and its belated...!!its a monday again and top on of it, there was ICA 2 for accounts jus now...dun talk about it le... well, thought that tis week would be less tight since the p team training is over...but more are coming up...tml, POM project, wed, oral comm, thurs, econs...manz...i m jus busy...but i supposed everyone in the class is as busy as well... there's ICA for internet tml...how...blur le la... wore the clothes that catherine and gang got for me...thanks again...an additional member to my closet family...haha...lol... and during the study of the ICA 2, we really ate lots of chocolates to relieve the stress man...ppl must drink lots of water, if not very heaty de... well, today, nothing to really say... P.S additional thanks to those whom i haven thanked yesterday...yijun, nice of yr testimonial, shwa juan, enting.... thanks to all who have wished me...
Sunday, July 10, 2005
cool...i m officially 17 already..!! anyway i would like to thank anyone who have send me an sms or thru msn last nite to wish me...really a big thank you...let's see wht i rmb those still...last nite i have lis, stef, ting and tze loong...definitely not forgetting my clique who have celebrated with me...today i hv...zhi ping, nurul, cin lee, alif, cindy girl, janis, sing yong, and most importantly, my daddy!! even though he is overseas, he rmb my birthday...well anymore? erm...if i hv forgotten to mention your name so sorry but i wil rmb them and treasure them de...thanks once again...though it's my birthday today, i m still busy with school work and stuffs...haha...poor me rite...and my cousins came over making me so busy...to entertain them rather than doing my work... ok i need to settle my work and my accounts ICA 2 tml...so blog in again tml... so fun today...
Saturday, July 09, 2005
 my clique grp photo with kids... me and jee chee1.jpg) jee chee and me....jpg) another one....jpg) alex's artistic look....jpg) another one....jpg) sis's artistic look....jpg) shan's artistic look... before and after....jpg) another one....jpg) shan and jee chee....jpg) alex, jee chee, me...(jee chee's so cute...)whee...24 hours more and i m officially 17 le...!!! today was a fun day manz...my clique came over after p team training...and of cos stef...but she left early cos she was gg to watch the ndp preview for this year... today was so pai seh lor...bryan was on the guitar and he started playing the birthday tune...sis la...dunno how she came up with tis idea, so half of the p team knows that its my birthday tml... so they came over and my cousin, jee chee was the main attraction, we ordered pizza and my mum cooked some dishes too...i bet they are very full now, they jus left ard 8 plus in my uncle's car to the nearest station...shan was definitely in luv with jee chee manz...i think she got herself a new bf le..haha..lol...then sis was more to chiew ling, which was jee chee's elder sis...and they are quite of a lookalike...then alex and alvin definitely join the fun...ting was more of a quiet today...perhaps she is tired or we didn't really get her involved...i feel so bad ya...sorry ting, if u feel a little neglected today...they played with my cousins at the playground...haha...hard to imagine rite...its ok..sis's blog wil hv the photos soon... not forgetting bout presents...alex passed me a mini cd that has live recording of his...though small, but i really appreciate that...really touched by it...thanks...as for ting, i understand wat were u trying to convey though the present u sent me...no worries ok? anyway, i really wanna to thank lis, shan, ting, alex, alvin for this unforgettable birthday hit today...THANKS!!! PS: i dun mind having another one next year....haha... thanks...
Friday, July 08, 2005
first and foremost...thanks catherine, malisa, juli (perhpas nurul n yi song???) for that lovely present...and the skirt is fine...i can fit it...haha...and definitely that bracelet...thanks once again...finished up my show and tell presentation...phew...from wat we knw from ms teo, sherlin is not fit from school, so we cannot blame her for not able to turn up for school and projects meetings... jus reach home bout an hour ago cos it was my grandparents' birthday bash...saw all my cousins manz...they are jus cute...haha...i mean the younger ones...haha... toay's p team training was boring...ms soh was jus adding on to wat mrs gina weers has taught...tml is ms koh's...customer relations...from 9 to 1...then my clique wil hit my hse...haha...for my birthday celebration... i m feeling so tired...today early in school then all the way till 6 then rush for dinner.. i need rest... ...
Thursday, July 07, 2005
its thursday again...results of the project superstars...went to school early today to start my oral comm ICA 3...everyone did their work jus great...haha...then tml hv to put on make up for p team's training... catherine must be full of smiles tonite when she is sleeping...i supposed so...catherine knows wat i m referring to...haha...sweet dreams ya...haha...with pictures...haha... doing accts tutorial now...while entering today's blog entry...very tiring leh...cos many steps...time consuming too...then my notebook must be registered with the school to use their wireless connection... many things have happened within these two weeks...so glad that everyone is living back to their own lifestyles again...even though it feels a little tensed... tml gg for grandparents' birthday bash...at gombak, cdans that side...at nite...7 plus i think... AND ITS SO SICKENING...tonite's elimination round is just too sudden ok...guess who are out...leon, lijun, DERRICK, KELLY!!!!! all the unexpected de...so sad now...lucky there is a wildcard round for them to have another chance to get into the semi finals...and ruth...her performance so so only...kelly's better than her ok then why is she staying and kelly is out...?? no mood le.. feeling bad...
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
wow...my cough is getting bad today...kept on coughing during the p team training...its terrible man...take medicine also lyk no use le...haha...but it wil be fine after a few days...hope so...just watched finished project superstar, yr might think that i m mad bout them le rite...well, not so bad as singapore idol...that was bad...at least i didn't vote tis time round though i love derrick to lots...he's jus cute la...then tonite's one was very competitive...all hv quite high points tonite le...lyk jun yang, he scored 38.5, jason, 28.5, derrick, 36.5, leon, 32.5....high pointers rite...and their songs are lyk....all very recognisable...lyk jay's jie kou, pin guan's ai qing bu neng zuo bi jiao, fan yi chen's piano, lee hom's wei yi...but the final thing is that two will hv to be eliminated out of four... then settling accts show and tell, sherlin...call her didn't pick up...not that i dun wan her to do...she didn't even bother to reply me...nth i can do... saw alif yest, bang into janis today...dunno who will i see further...haha...then tml doing oral comm before class...tiring la.. enough for today le...off to accts show and tell... happy birthday sally!! (not forgetting janis...!!!)
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
hey, happy birthday sally and not forgetting my dear janis...both are 17 tis year...may all your wishes come true ya...went to school to celebrate sally's birthday today...nice gifts ya from catherine they all...nice designed shirts...haha...hopefully he did hv a unforgettable birthday experience this year...plus david beckham was at my school today...one in the lifetime ok...and he managed to catch it all rite... enough of the birthday thingy, jus finished watching 'coffee talk and hawker wok' on channel 5, its the season finale and its SLY!!! haha...ok..need to get back to work ya...tutorials, projects...i m going bonkers soon...haha... well, as things happened, i supposed there is gonna to be a change in the spastics arragement then...do not wish to talk to much about it...everyone has been disturbed by this for the past few days, or in fact, weeks...take it easy ppl... caught a flu bug from dunno where...and its terrible...my dad is not a tissue supplier ya...haha... continue working on my tutorials then... breatheless...
Monday, July 04, 2005
sch is till 8pm tonite...so tired...then hv to start finding infomation for oral and econs le...so stressful...can't breathe le...haha...but i m still alive...haha...i was quite moody somehow today...unhappy memories...but thanks ting, u advised that i should continue moving front instead of floating on the surface of the water that wouldn't be of use to me at all...its no use holding on to something that is in the past le, cos there is more things that are awaiting for me to go for... today's accounts lecture...ok la...i managed to come up with a poem leh...haha... "over the rainbow, here and there. hard to believe, we are still friends. a smile from you, would brighten my day. friends forever, that's our say...." dunno how meaningful is this, but perhaps it might just apply to anyone... for ting, as said, no one is worth for u to get angry for, unless they are friends that u can trust...rite? no worries k...we'll be there for u always... need to do research for both projects le...continue tml... its sunday...
Sunday, July 03, 2005
its a sunday today...feeling fine...blog in early today cos watching the charity show later...haha.. so fun...this year's ndp theme song is"reach for the skies" which will be sang by our very own homegrown talent, rui en and our singapore idol, taufik...it will be be a duet this year...wanna to watch the video? it is available at this webpage: http://www.ndp.org.sg/index.jsp?page=videos.htm, and if u wanna the song and lyrics, then it is here: http://www.ndp.org.sg/index.jsp?page=songs.htm ....it's not too bad this year...quite nice... aside this...my tutorials are not done yet...have to complete later while watching...poor me...haha...then poor stef, lost her hp...see how later... its a youth day tml...yet the poly ppl are not having a holiday....and i m having class till 8 pm tml...so sickening...while my sibilings are enjoying at home...well, on the other hand, it is only one day...not a week... happen to talk to my good fren, shwa juan yest...and we still have stuffs to catch up...many other ppl too...lyk enting, both the huilings...haha...miss them so much... oh well, blog in tml...off to the tv... so tired...
Saturday, July 02, 2005
i m so tired today...wake up early in the morning to attend the third session of the professional team...only got 5 hours of sleep!! was ultra tired manz...then there was a briefing for the guaduation ceremony 2005...and its so damn sickening...my mom deleted my songs and they are all lost now...100 ove..r songs...i m so fed up now...wat m i supposed to do..wanna to retrieve from the recycle bin, but she deleted it as well...how m i gonna to retrieve those songs back...? listening to fan yi chen's chu ci zhi wai...its nice...soothing enough to calm me down at least...anw, i was supposed to go offline ard 11 yesterday but in the end, i shut the notebook down at 12...cos i was talking to him...even i myself dun understand...its a short conversation, but it was him tt made me continue staying online even though i was really tired and i hv to get up early tis morning...aren't i'm foolish...silly enough to make the first mistake and now...perhaps its really hopeless le...dunno wat's wrong with me...knowing that it is totally impossible...why m i still habouring the hope for a get back...haiz... tml is sunday...hv the charity show...sly will be there too...so happy...then hv to settle the homeworks tml as well...off to bed le... me and still me...
Friday, July 01, 2005
its friday already...so fast...another week past le...well...new icas coming up...then finally downloaded the messenger into my labtop le...cool...today have p team training...but some parts was boring...tml we still have training from 8am to 12 noon...bless me...its 8am...we dun even have this timeslot in our timetable this semester...haha...and its public relations tml...under mrs gina weers... chatted online with sis, ting and kor...talk about many things...esp with kor...he still rmb my birthday...haha...cool ya... many unpleasant things happened these few days...jus do not wish to mention them...ting, relax ya...everything will turn out fine...sherlin again not here...dunno wat happen again...i m at a loss manz... as for me, i am still me...even though many things happened too quickly...i m perfectly fine...all along i know that some things cannot always remain as wat they are, its jus that my character doesn't allow me to let them go...but i m gonna to release them bit by bit...and it is always say that time would heal all wounds...but many are still counting their scars...but only by letting go, i will be happier... well...that's all for today...nothing more to write le...tired...need to rest le... |
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